i hv seen a teacher cry but i nvr knew why exactly.today i finally knew.well it wasnt a teacher who cried but a senior...she was so so so so so disappointed in us n all-she had her expectations n all,she put in all her effort n practised w us instead of leaving us alone n go prac by herself, she tried her best n was so so so understandingwhen we couldnt do it-n yet all we did was to stare at our music score n stone in our chair when we were supposed to play.well we werent able to catch up on the speed n all n our yin1 zun3 wasnt good,but we were supposed to already hv practised at home before we go for xiaozu n dazu so well it was us who were wrong.n we were late too when we were supposed to go at 8am for extra prac.n we reached at around 8.20am...but luckily nvr get scolded but i think it contributed to it...after all everybody has their limits... i totally feel so bad larh so we practised during lunch break after eating cup noodles n i think i improved alittle bit in terms of speed but yin1 zun3 still wasnt perfect..but still when in dazu i dint play much. well i played the melodies n abit of the accompaniment cos aftertt i got lost n some other accompaniment when i stopped cos i got LOST AGAIN!n then i played the start abit oso cos vry fast n cant get the speed n my kuai4 ban2 was lyk...well u listen liao u will vomit blood n then say the word"lan4"then faint...cos i cant get the speed...omg i really really need to prac vry hard...i noe liao...i shall sacrifice all my tv programs n then concentrate fully on playing the zhonghu...n oso computer...ok maybe i shall practise zhonghu in the afternoon n then in the night i shall go online...hmm..ya...tts wad i m going to do!but i scared after i come back fm ipoh then i cant play again...HOW?ok maybe i shall play right after i come back on 29 nov then on 30th i will go for xiaozu...ya... but its lyk so sad cos after i come back then afew days later go overseas again...ahh...i will be so so so slow when i come back..n so lost...i dun wanna go for holidays!ok maybe i wanna go korea but i dun want to go ipoh cos i will miss 3 prac sessions in tt week but 2 in tt week in korea but even so...i will miss my seniors n frens n esp chang2 di1 sui2 xiang2...haha...will try to memorise when i m on holiday cos there will be long bus rides n all that...so must well make use of the time...cos i wasted too much time before the eoys n so my results werent at all nice to look at... i m going to put in all my effort n time n play chang2 di1 sui2 xiang2 until i can reach the desired speed n my yin1 zun3 is perfect...yes!i can do it!i m nt going to let my senior be disappointed in me again n the other two zhonghu-ers cos i m sure they will oso prac vry hard...YES!WE CAN DO IT! reminds me of bob the builder...haha...haiyah no time to joke...got to go prac now... i am feeling so bad n guilty n sad n disappointed in myself today...AHHHHHHHHH!pls forgive me!
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