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11:02 PM
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i know my posts are boring n long n wadeva...but u can choose not to read it...so long as u tag can le...
now i m feeling super guilty can?!i vry scared my senior will break down after i told her wad happened...maybe it wasnt tt serious but to hv wls grinning in tt way then saying(in chinese): ni3 men3 shi4 wo3 jiao1 de4 ma1?...n to hv one-by-one n even the seniors got told for yinzhun...is it time for reflection???[[anw congrats to yifei for hving passed the test of one-by-one of liangfeng starting!!!:))]]anw it was really devastating...maybe the other sections just dun get it...when wls said smth abt xianyue n all they did was to continue talking n laughing...ok so maybe we did tt too when they were taught by wls but still they were laughing at smth nt so vry good tt was said to xianyue by wls...u may think i m da4 jing1 xiao3 guai4 but ok,maybe i m...but it really angers me to say tt xianyue still got said when more seniors turned up today...is it smth to do with effort?or skill?or just interest?why isit tt smth liddat cld happen when there is lyk only abt 2 weeks to syf?maybe i m nt fit to say all these cos i m nt so good myself but i can say tt i hv at least tried...maybe i think i m..tt is...so are we going to leave it liddat?or are we going to do smth abt it???or rather m i going to do smth abt my playing?i shall listen more to jiahui n valerie n try my best to use wadeva they teach me...to play to the best of my ability...i dun want to disappoint them again...
seriously i think i shldnt hv told my senior abt the standard of xianyue cos who knows she might be secretly sobbing away somewhere...after all the effort she has put in n this is wad she got?only after 2 absences n this is wad happened...but at least it gives her a gauge of tmr's prac n lowers her expectations n if we play better then she will be happy...hopefully tt is...i really dun want to be the cause of any seniors feeling sad...i dun want it to turn out tt way...
so tmr i m prac-ing w jiahui early before prac starts...hope it doesnt turn out too awkward cos i told her tt n saddening for her to hear me play...haiyoh...
why does life hv to be so complicated?why cant it be simpler?why?why cant things turn out our way?why dint i prac harder last time to maintain my standard n nt to let my seniors worry abt us all the time?why did everything change lyk practically overnight???
boo.i m sad.vry sad.really vry sad.(radley...)
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9:21 PM
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harlos again!:)
searched the web for other school's co blogs n found:
snco--http://www.-snco.blogspot.com/
nyco--http://www.nyco-.blogspot.com/
tmsco--http://temasekchineseorchestra.blogspot.com/
haha i know i m kaypoh n kiasu but wadeva i m a singaporean kaes?!
everyone now is feeling the stress n everything n everyone wants tt gold w honours...
everyone has the skill, the potential, the determination but wad makes rgco different from them?nothing,i guess except tt we,as the co of a top girls' school,shld be better..but are we any better?yes!n a N-O, NO!for me tt is...haiz...now all of them r lyk prac-ing lyk crazy...n we still seem so relaxed..maybe me...it seems lyk its nothing..maybe we werent there at the last syf where the seniors cried when we got gold when we cld hv gotten gold w honours...they regretted i guess...but can we let tt happen again?!NO...tt is nt wad we want for co...why cant we let the sec4 seniors leave rg knowing tt rgco will continue the great legacy...seriously i dunno wad i m talking abt now...haha..anw we cant let the sec3 n sec4 seniors down cos afterall its their last syf w rgco...i know i m crapping a lot...but i think i make sense right?k i know i hv practically no right to say anything at all cos i m only a little sec2 junior who isnt good at all...but this is just my honest opinion...u can read it n be motivated or even jus throw it out of your brain cos u think its nonsensical...but u see the hard work other schools r willing to put in n u tell me we can get it w/o hard work n effort?is tt the way?as wls said 台上一分钟,台下十年功 ...so cant we put our hearts together cos afterall we r all part of rgco right???u might not agree cos afterall its my opinion...n anyway no one knows this blog except fm shiyun...lalala...so there will be no debate...but if this blog's existence is known to anyone else in co...hahaha...shiyun u will die a terrible death n stop ur nonsense k on the thingy tt u sang to..haha..n this <> thingy...haha...so funny..
lets make changdi n liangfeng a big big success!good luck to rgco!good luck to rgcohuuz!good luck to myself!i know its early but it doesnt matter so long as it's useful...(:
lets make tmr's dazu n xiaozu beneficial!:)
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1:18 PM
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hello....fine shi tian i know my posts are all abt co cos my life revolves arnd co...haha...its true k n i mentioned it in the last post liao....so i shall blog abt smth nt co but tt will be in the middle of this post k?:)i know i m nice larh...thank you thank you!!!
anw today met shiyun at bus stop then went to school then went to 205 classroom...then started prac-ing then played concert dvd...observed their movements n tried but i think i better get my parts rite n yinzun n speed n volume...haiz...anw i think today was rather beneficial cos i finally got one part clearer...but when i think abt ytd,i know this is not enough...so i shall continue to prac hard...yay!if i can motivate myself...i think shld be can cos tt time after ------ cried,i prac-ed hard n finally became rather good,i think but now i relax n this is wad happens so i shall use wadeva happened ytd to motivate myself...yes!i dun want ------ to cry again...i shall not be an evil junior...n i dun want to be one...
anw when we were looking thru blogs,angklung pple suddenly BARGED in n consists of shi tian,carissa n their friends(charlotte,alifya(i dunno how to spell),then someone i dun rmb seeing),cos they were playing hide-n-seek n decided to BARGE in n hide...haha...so they all hid at the teacher's table area...then we started playing the concert dvd...then suddenly another angklung person opened the back door then the front door,but said sry then left...apparently she was scared cos hv co pple...haha...maybe she saw our huuz...haha...
then today i ate kfc again!!!ytd i ate tt larh n i m going to eat tt on thurs n fri too!!!i think i will get fatter but who cares?!i love eating!yay!tt's why i m so fat...haha...we ate in class lerh,but we made sure it wasnt dirty at all when we left...yay!did math pt,but hvnt finish yet...lalala...
how???die!i hvnt done any of my hw yet larh...n shi tian is alr starting on revision...haha...shldnt i be ashamed of myself??nvm...i m bored...shall go watch tv...byebye!
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3:29 PM
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hello!
hv been feeling vry depressed lately...
zhonghu seriously sucks without jiahui n valerie!!!!!=( how???i hv disappointed them YET AGAIN!!!why does it hv to be liddat???why is it until this point in time tt we realise tt time is so vry precious n we cant afford to lose it yet slacked in the end?!why is it tt sometimes one can be so pro n the next moment tt person can become so pathetic...why do things hv to turn out liddat?!we simply jus let down everyone's expectations of xianyue by jus being a part of dazu...jus by playing...gaohu is good there's no denying it,so good for them but wad abt the rest of xianyue?!are we still going to hv tt heck care attitude,tt in syf there will be seniors covering up for us?so we can successfully get tt gold w honours?!seriously,do u think the judges are stupid or jus plain idiotic or are they unobservant?!obvious they can see u hun4-ing right???i know i simply hv no right to say all this cos i also hun4 n somemore in alot of parts...i seriously suck!!!isnt it time for all of us to jus wake up n face up to reality...so wad if this is rgco?so wad if the seniors are good ?so wad if there's still time?for goodness sake,why cant all of us jus prac hard n do our best...so if really really we dun get it,we can say tt we hv alr done our best n nt regret it...of course we shld aim for the best but afterall we shld know our limits...
so today,wls was so vry vry disappointed w xianyue,but rather happy w gaohu...but sadly she dint say anything abt zhonghu except tt our yin1zun3 sucked...i think its partly bcos my hu the xian wasnt tiao3-ed properly so it was rather high...n i screwed up all the fast fast parts...i m vry vry disappointed w myself...how many more times do i hv to mention "disappointed jiahui n valerie again" in my posts?????how many more times do i hv to screw up?how many times can i nt screw up drng dazu?n xiaozu?how many more times can i nt be so slack???
I AM REALLY REALLY ANNOYED BY MY BEHAVIOUR...I REALLY WANT TO DO MY PART FOR SYF'07 AND LET JIAHUI N VALERIE BE PROUD OF ME,BUT PART OF ME JUS WANT ALL OF THIS TO END,QUICKLY N SUCCESSFULLY W/O ME HVING TO HV ANYMORE BLISTERS ON MY FINGER N WORK HARD...BUT EVERYONE KNOWS TT SUCCESS COMES W HARD WORK...SO I SHALL JUS TRY TO MOTIVATE MYSELF ALOT MORE THEN USUAL!!!I SHALL DO JIAHUI N VALERIE PROUD!!!!!yay!!!if only doing it is easier than saying it...but i will still try my vry best!!!
k i jus dedicated half a post to co...haha...co is my life...my life revolves arnd co...haha...wadeva...
anw i finished watching hana-kimi ytd!!!XDDyay!but its so sad tt ruixi dint tell quan tt she's a girl in the end but anw they are hu4 xiang1 xi3 huan1 each other one larh...so sweet lorh...haha..will miss watching hana-kimi on youtube...but there willl be an end to things....
i think xianyue will be vry weak when the sec 4s leave n i think i will miss them... :( so sad...even though i m nt exactly close to them i think they r vry pro,as everyone can see,n vry nice ppl!!!they really put in effort to set a good example for us to follow n they do their best in everything n want us to be as good as them too...if i m a senior i dun think i can be as selfless as them lorh...haiz...if only we got to know them better earlier n while we still hv the time...
if only a miracle cld happen so tt xianyue's standards will nt stress jiahui,suchin n yubo out,our nice nice sl n asl...n not forgetting the ever-so-nice mel n jasmine,who are all so pro!!!!!IF ONLY...
ok shall not be so pessimistic,all we nd is a little luck n lots of hard work,n together we will make syf'07 a big huge success!!!gold with honours!:)
but still i m feeling vry depressed after wad happened drng dazu today...haiz...
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7:05 PM
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yay!today is the last day of school!and we had swim carn!lalala...oh n tarbet won!
9:10 PM
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hello!
hvnt updated for a long long time....
let me see...k shall start updating fm wed,the last day of feb...
-wed
finished the clay thingy n mine is lyk super fabulous...yay!!!can u believe it?NO.k wadeva...i hv a feeling its going to break in the kiln...or rather CRACK....
nothing much happened...
-thurs
the official co day...where bad things often happen to me...but i think my luck is changing...ahaha...hopefully that is...
dint get scolded or anything liddat...had dazu throughout n i realised tt i cant concentrate at all...my mind will lyk float off to homework,mugging for sa,holidays,blablabla...then i suddenly go back...haiz anw i realised tt my standard hv lyk dropped ALOT since the dec hols...u see wad holidays can do to you?!not tt my standard was lyk great or wadsoever...so now u can imagine how bad i sound not tt it can be heard really...k i so totally know tt i play lyk super softly tt when other pple play n then i play u cant hear me AT ALL...except myself...and jia hui spent so much time trying to get me to play loud....I M SO SORRY...i sometimes do feel tt i m a burden n a good-for-nothing,you know....ahhh....
oh n i had this super bad headache...after dazu went home...ate alittle n then watched lyk only 10 min of hana-kimi n i requested to have time to sleep till bathing time...first time ever...when i can miss a tv show to sleep...then went to bathe...then blow dry hair,dilly-dallied n it was lyk 9.30pm...n i requested to sleep again...until 10.30...then at 10.30 i was waken up but i requested to sleep again...set alarm at 2.30...and my father was woken up by it...n i wasnt...btw he's lyk in the next room...but he nvr wake me up...n finally at 4.30am on fri,i woke up...can u believe it?!haha...n at 5am i started mugging for history sa...isnt it an accomplishment of super last-minuteness???
-fri
another official co day!
history was quite ok i think but i rushed thru the last qn..can be inferred fm handwriting...ahaha...
had dazu first before xiaozu....
k i know i need to STOP hun4-ing during dazu...it isnt really healthy for ur standard...at first can play then suddenly cant...haiz....
during xiaozu was taught movement...to the man4 ban2 part so we were accompaniment...haha i know zhonghu sucks without valerie n jia hui...otherwise,zhonghu sucks WITH ME AROUND...ahaha...i m so totally proud of this fact...ya sure...wadeva...i was lyk super super nervous when valerie's row was called out to listen n see,so vianne n me were left n i was concentrating on the notes cos there's no valerie to look at and also in tt row there's willette n suchin too...all the pro-ded pple...haiz...then their comment was zhonghu need to move more...i think there's more to it but it wasnt said out loud....
i m lyk so jealous of valerie,jia hui n vianne cos they can lyk play so loudly without spoiling the sound of it n so nicely too...ahhh..how?i m going to die during zoutai...hopefully we will get above 80 marks or so wls said...oh n valerie(sheenia/sheena's cousin!so coincidental right?!) can play zhuan shu tian shi,zen me ban,an jing,ju hua tai on the zhonghu jus by listening to vianne sing....i dint want to learn cos i dint want to spoil the nice nice songs and oso i want to train my ears to be as good as hers...yes!shall prac very very hard!n i shall mug too!
-sat!today!founder's day!
the GOH's speech was lyk 1/2 hour long lorh....aiyoh...keep on saying she this thing she that thing...all about herself...wad mp's wife wad climb mt fuji...so proud for wad?!but at least i think she looks lyk a nice person...btw though mrs tan's speech was considered short as compared to hers,i think it was much inspirational..."never give up,never never never"...smth liddat...so i shal work hard to play my part in helping rgco achieve gold with honours for syf07...yes!
started mugging for geog but to no avail...n right i prac-ed n i sounded horrible...ahh...shall work harder...realised tt i hvnt done my homework this whole week...shall do last-minute things again...HOW?!i hvnt got back my hcl fa qn paper back...how?!AHH..
wish me luck k!for improving my standard in zhonghu in less than a week,but wed 7 march...for zoutai...theres so many things to do but there is so little time...how i wish there is lyk 36 hours in a day...more time for play,homework,blogging,prac-ing n jus plain slacking...how i wish...
anw i will be leaving class early on wed...will miss more than half of philo and tt lesson is lyk so impt can?!the presentations on euthanasia,wad we will be asked to write a journal abt for philo sa....can u believe it?!shall ask jenny to take notes for me....yay!but still it isnt good to miss class to go for zoutai with tt yucky white long-sleeved blouse,black knne-length skirt,stackings,court shoes,school balzer....haiyoh,,,i wonder how ugly/weird i will look like lorh...
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