hello! hv been feeling vry depressed lately... zhonghu seriously sucks without jiahui n valerie!!!!!=( how???i hv disappointed them YET AGAIN!!!why does it hv to be liddat???why is it until this point in time tt we realise tt time is so vry precious n we cant afford to lose it yet slacked in the end?!why is it tt sometimes one can be so pro n the next moment tt person can become so pathetic...why do things hv to turn out liddat?!we simply jus let down everyone's expectations of xianyue by jus being a part of dazu...jus by playing...gaohu is good there's no denying it,so good for them but wad abt the rest of xianyue?!are we still going to hv tt heck care attitude,tt in syf there will be seniors covering up for us?so we can successfully get tt gold w honours?!seriously,do u think the judges are stupid or jus plain idiotic or are they unobservant?!obvious they can see u hun4-ing right???i know i simply hv no right to say all this cos i also hun4 n somemore in alot of parts...i seriously suck!!!isnt it time for all of us to jus wake up n face up to reality...so wad if this is rgco?so wad if the seniors are good ?so wad if there's still time?for goodness sake,why cant all of us jus prac hard n do our best...so if really really we dun get it,we can say tt we hv alr done our best n nt regret it...of course we shld aim for the best but afterall we shld know our limits... so today,wls was so vry vry disappointed w xianyue,but rather happy w gaohu...but sadly she dint say anything abt zhonghu except tt our yin1zun3 sucked...i think its partly bcos my hu the xian wasnt tiao3-ed properly so it was rather high...n i screwed up all the fast fast parts...i m vry vry disappointed w myself...how many more times do i hv to mention "disappointed jiahui n valerie again" in my posts?????how many more times do i hv to screw up?how many times can i nt screw up drng dazu?n xiaozu?how many more times can i nt be so slack??? I AM REALLY REALLY ANNOYED BY MY BEHAVIOUR...I REALLY WANT TO DO MY PART FOR SYF'07 AND LET JIAHUI N VALERIE BE PROUD OF ME,BUT PART OF ME JUS WANT ALL OF THIS TO END,QUICKLY N SUCCESSFULLY W/O ME HVING TO HV ANYMORE BLISTERS ON MY FINGER N WORK HARD...BUT EVERYONE KNOWS TT SUCCESS COMES W HARD WORK...SO I SHALL JUS TRY TO MOTIVATE MYSELF ALOT MORE THEN USUAL!!!I SHALL DO JIAHUI N VALERIE PROUD!!!!!yay!!!if only doing it is easier than saying it...but i will still try my vry best!!! k i jus dedicated half a post to co...haha...co is my life...my life revolves arnd co...haha...wadeva... anw i finished watching hana-kimi ytd!!!XDDyay!but its so sad tt ruixi dint tell quan tt she's a girl in the end but anw they are hu4 xiang1 xi3 huan1 each other one larh...so sweet lorh...haha..will miss watching hana-kimi on youtube...but there willl be an end to things.... i think xianyue will be vry weak when the sec 4s leave n i think i will miss them... :( so sad...even though i m nt exactly close to them i think they r vry pro,as everyone can see,n vry nice ppl!!!they really put in effort to set a good example for us to follow n they do their best in everything n want us to be as good as them too...if i m a senior i dun think i can be as selfless as them lorh...haiz...if only we got to know them better earlier n while we still hv the time... if only a miracle cld happen so tt xianyue's standards will nt stress jiahui,suchin n yubo out,our nice nice sl n asl...n not forgetting the ever-so-nice mel n jasmine,who are all so pro!!!!!IF ONLY... ok shall not be so pessimistic,all we nd is a little luck n lots of hard work,n together we will make syf'07 a big huge success!!!gold with honours!:) but still i m feeling vry depressed after wad happened drng dazu today...haiz...
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