i know my posts are boring n long n wadeva...but u can choose not to read it...so long as u tag can le... now i m feeling super guilty can?!i vry scared my senior will break down after i told her wad happened...maybe it wasnt tt serious but to hv wls grinning in tt way then saying(in chinese): ni3 men3 shi4 wo3 jiao1 de4 ma1?...n to hv one-by-one n even the seniors got told for yinzhun...is it time for reflection???[[anw congrats to yifei for hving passed the test of one-by-one of liangfeng starting!!!:))]]anw it was really devastating...maybe the other sections just dun get it...when wls said smth abt xianyue n all they did was to continue talking n laughing...ok so maybe we did tt too when they were taught by wls but still they were laughing at smth nt so vry good tt was said to xianyue by wls...u may think i m da4 jing1 xiao3 guai4 but ok,maybe i m...but it really angers me to say tt xianyue still got said when more seniors turned up today...is it smth to do with effort?or skill?or just interest?why isit tt smth liddat cld happen when there is lyk only abt 2 weeks to syf?maybe i m nt fit to say all these cos i m nt so good myself but i can say tt i hv at least tried...maybe i think i m..tt is...so are we going to leave it liddat?or are we going to do smth abt it???or rather m i going to do smth abt my playing?i shall listen more to jiahui n valerie n try my best to use wadeva they teach me...to play to the best of my ability...i dun want to disappoint them again... seriously i think i shldnt hv told my senior abt the standard of xianyue cos who knows she might be secretly sobbing away somewhere...after all the effort she has put in n this is wad she got?only after 2 absences n this is wad happened...but at least it gives her a gauge of tmr's prac n lowers her expectations n if we play better then she will be happy...hopefully tt is...i really dun want to be the cause of any seniors feeling sad...i dun want it to turn out tt way... so tmr i m prac-ing w jiahui early before prac starts...hope it doesnt turn out too awkward cos i told her tt n saddening for her to hear me play...haiyoh... why does life hv to be so complicated?why cant it be simpler?why?why cant things turn out our way?why dint i prac harder last time to maintain my standard n nt to let my seniors worry abt us all the time?why did everything change lyk practically overnight??? boo.i m sad.vry sad.really vry sad.(radley...)
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