dun worry be happy

2007-03-24T23:02:00.000+08:00

i have moved!
sry for the inconvenience!
pls go to http://www.hahacontradiction.blogspot.com from now on..thank you!

2007-03-15T21:21:00.000+08:00

i know my posts are boring n long n wadeva...but u can choose not to read it...so long as u tag can le...
now i m feeling super guilty can?!i vry scared my senior will break down after i told her wad happened...maybe it wasnt tt serious but to hv wls grinning in tt way then saying(in chinese): ni3 men3 shi4 wo3 jiao1 de4 ma1?...n to hv one-by-one n even the seniors got told for yinzhun...is it time for reflection???[[anw congrats to yifei for hving passed the test of one-by-one of liangfeng starting!!!:))]]anw it was really devastating...maybe the other sections just dun get it...when wls said smth abt xianyue n all they did was to continue talking n laughing...ok so maybe we did tt too when they were taught by wls but still they were laughing at smth nt so vry good tt was said to xianyue by wls...u may think i m da4 jing1 xiao3 guai4 but ok,maybe i m...but it really angers me to say tt xianyue still got said when more seniors turned up today...is it smth to do with effort?or skill?or just interest?why isit tt smth liddat cld happen when there is lyk only abt 2 weeks to syf?maybe i m nt fit to say all these cos i m nt so good myself but i can say tt i hv at least tried...maybe i think i m..tt is...so are we going to leave it liddat?or are we going to do smth abt it???or rather m i going to do smth abt my playing?i shall listen more to jiahui n valerie n try my best to use wadeva they teach me...to play to the best of my ability...i dun want to disappoint them again...
seriously i think i shldnt hv told my senior abt the standard of xianyue cos who knows she might be secretly sobbing away somewhere...after all the effort she has put in n this is wad she got?only after 2 absences n this is wad happened...but at least it gives her a gauge of tmr's prac n lowers her expectations n if we play better then she will be happy...hopefully tt is...i really dun want to be the cause of any seniors feeling sad...i dun want it to turn out tt way...
so tmr i m prac-ing w jiahui early before prac starts...hope it doesnt turn out too awkward cos i told her tt n saddening for her to hear me play...haiyoh...
why does life hv to be so complicated?why cant it be simpler?why?why cant things turn out our way?why dint i prac harder last time to maintain my standard n nt to let my seniors worry abt us all the time?why did everything change lyk practically overnight???
boo.i m sad.vry sad.really vry sad.(radley...)

2007-03-14T13:18:00.000+08:00

harlos again!:)
searched the web for other school's co blogs n found:
snco--http://www.-snco.blogspot.com/
nyco--http://www.nyco-.blogspot.com/
tmsco--http://temasekchineseorchestra.blogspot.com/
haha i know i m kaypoh n kiasu but wadeva i m a singaporean kaes?!
everyone now is feeling the stress n everything n everyone wants tt gold w honours...
everyone has the skill, the potential, the determination but wad makes rgco different from them?nothing,i guess except tt we,as the co of a top girls' school,shld be better..but are we any better?yes!n a N-O, NO!for me tt is...haiz...now all of them r lyk prac-ing lyk crazy...n we still seem so relaxed..maybe me...it seems lyk its nothing..maybe we werent there at the last syf where the seniors cried when we got gold when we cld hv gotten gold w honours...they regretted i guess...but can we let tt happen again?!NO...tt is nt wad we want for co...why cant we let the sec4 seniors leave rg knowing tt rgco will continue the great legacy...seriously i dunno wad i m talking abt now...haha..anw we cant let the sec3 n sec4 seniors down cos afterall its their last syf w rgco...i know i m crapping a lot...but i think i make sense right?k i know i hv practically no right to say anything at all cos i m only a little sec2 junior who isnt good at all...but this is just my honest opinion...u can read it n be motivated or even jus throw it out of your brain cos u think its nonsensical...but u see the hard work other schools r willing to put in n u tell me we can get it w/o hard work n effort?is tt the way?as wls said 台上一分钟,台下十年功 ...so cant we put our hearts together cos afterall we r all part of rgco right???u might not agree cos afterall its my opinion...n anyway no one knows this blog except fm shiyun...lalala...so there will be no debate...but if this blog's existence is known to anyone else in co...hahaha...shiyun u will die a terrible death n stop ur nonsense k on the thingy tt u sang to..haha..n this <> thingy...haha...so funny..
lets make changdi n liangfeng a big big success!good luck to rgco!good luck to rgcohuuz!good luck to myself!i know its early but it doesnt matter so long as it's useful...(:
lets make tmr's dazu n xiaozu beneficial!:)

2007-03-13T15:29:00.000+08:00

hello....fine shi tian i know my posts are all abt co cos my life revolves arnd co...haha...its true k n i mentioned it in the last post liao....so i shall blog abt smth nt co but tt will be in the middle of this post k?:)i know i m nice larh...thank you thank you!!!
anw today met shiyun at bus stop then went to school then went to 205 classroom...then started prac-ing then played concert dvd...observed their movements n tried but i think i better get my parts rite n yinzun n speed n volume...haiz...anw i think today was rather beneficial cos i finally got one part clearer...but when i think abt ytd,i know this is not enough...so i shall continue to prac hard...yay!if i can motivate myself...i think shld be can cos tt time after ------ cried,i prac-ed hard n finally became rather good,i think but now i relax n this is wad happens so i shall use wadeva happened ytd to motivate myself...yes!i dun want ------ to cry again...i shall not be an evil junior...n i dun want to be one...
anw when we were looking thru blogs,angklung pple suddenly BARGED in n consists of shi tian,carissa n their friends(charlotte,alifya(i dunno how to spell),then someone i dun rmb seeing),cos they were playing hide-n-seek n decided to BARGE in n hide...haha...so they all hid at the teacher's table area...then we started playing the concert dvd...then suddenly another angklung person opened the back door then the front door,but said sry then left...apparently she was scared cos hv co pple...haha...maybe she saw our huuz...haha...
then today i ate kfc again!!!ytd i ate tt larh n i m going to eat tt on thurs n fri too!!!i think i will get fatter but who cares?!i love eating!yay!tt's why i m so fat...haha...we ate in class lerh,but we made sure it wasnt dirty at all when we left...yay!did math pt,but hvnt finish yet...lalala...
how???die!i hvnt done any of my hw yet larh...n shi tian is alr starting on revision...haha...shldnt i be ashamed of myself??nvm...i m bored...shall go watch tv...byebye!

2007-03-12T19:05:00.000+08:00

hello!
hv been feeling vry depressed lately...
zhonghu seriously sucks without jiahui n valerie!!!!!=( how???i hv disappointed them YET AGAIN!!!why does it hv to be liddat???why is it until this point in time tt we realise tt time is so vry precious n we cant afford to lose it yet slacked in the end?!why is it tt sometimes one can be so pro n the next moment tt person can become so pathetic...why do things hv to turn out liddat?!we simply jus let down everyone's expectations of xianyue by jus being a part of dazu...jus by playing...gaohu is good there's no denying it,so good for them but wad abt the rest of xianyue?!are we still going to hv tt heck care attitude,tt in syf there will be seniors covering up for us?so we can successfully get tt gold w honours?!seriously,do u think the judges are stupid or jus plain idiotic or are they unobservant?!obvious they can see u hun4-ing right???i know i simply hv no right to say all this cos i also hun4 n somemore in alot of parts...i seriously suck!!!isnt it time for all of us to jus wake up n face up to reality...so wad if this is rgco?so wad if the seniors are good ?so wad if there's still time?for goodness sake,why cant all of us jus prac hard n do our best...so if really really we dun get it,we can say tt we hv alr done our best n nt regret it...of course we shld aim for the best but afterall we shld know our limits...
so today,wls was so vry vry disappointed w xianyue,but rather happy w gaohu...but sadly she dint say anything abt zhonghu except tt our yin1zun3 sucked...i think its partly bcos my hu the xian wasnt tiao3-ed properly so it was rather high...n i screwed up all the fast fast parts...i m vry vry disappointed w myself...how many more times do i hv to mention "disappointed jiahui n valerie again" in my posts?????how many more times do i hv to screw up?how many times can i nt screw up drng dazu?n xiaozu?how many more times can i nt be so slack???
I AM REALLY REALLY ANNOYED BY MY BEHAVIOUR...I REALLY WANT TO DO MY PART FOR SYF'07 AND LET JIAHUI N VALERIE BE PROUD OF ME,BUT PART OF ME JUS WANT ALL OF THIS TO END,QUICKLY N SUCCESSFULLY W/O ME HVING TO HV ANYMORE BLISTERS ON MY FINGER N WORK HARD...BUT EVERYONE KNOWS TT SUCCESS COMES W HARD WORK...SO I SHALL JUS TRY TO MOTIVATE MYSELF ALOT MORE THEN USUAL!!!I SHALL DO JIAHUI N VALERIE PROUD!!!!!yay!!!if only doing it is easier than saying it...but i will still try my vry best!!!
k i jus dedicated half a post to co...haha...co is my life...my life revolves arnd co...haha...wadeva...
anw i finished watching hana-kimi ytd!!!XDDyay!but its so sad tt ruixi dint tell quan tt she's a girl in the end but anw they are hu4 xiang1 xi3 huan1 each other one larh...so sweet lorh...haha..will miss watching hana-kimi on youtube...but there willl be an end to things....
i think xianyue will be vry weak when the sec 4s leave n i think i will miss them... :( so sad...even though i m nt exactly close to them i think they r vry pro,as everyone can see,n vry nice ppl!!!they really put in effort to set a good example for us to follow n they do their best in everything n want us to be as good as them too...if i m a senior i dun think i can be as selfless as them lorh...haiz...if only we got to know them better earlier n while we still hv the time...
if only a miracle cld happen so tt xianyue's standards will nt stress jiahui,suchin n yubo out,our nice nice sl n asl...n not forgetting the ever-so-nice mel n jasmine,who are all so pro!!!!!IF ONLY...
ok shall not be so pessimistic,all we nd is a little luck n lots of hard work,n together we will make syf'07 a big huge success!!!gold with honours!:)
but still i m feeling vry depressed after wad happened drng dazu today...haiz...

2007-03-09T21:10:00.000+08:00

yay!today is the last day of school!and we had swim carn!lalala...oh n tarbet won!

the results are as follows...

1. tarbet

2. waddle

3. buckle

4. hadley

5. richard

it's such a sad fact tt hadley was fourth...last year we were lyk FIRST!k nvm...

anw shi tian please dun feel bad anymore kaes?i really am ok...and i m sorry for the publicity i gave for the blueblack i got...jus found it interesting..."interesting specimen"..haha...and also funny cos i m extremely proud of my slow-ness...my reaction is slow and i wont deny it...now not vry obvious le...dun worry...now i jus wanna kill shi yun for scaring me...she was lyk saying tt time hv one guy got hit on head then thought nothing much then in the end DIED larh...it's lyk omg...so scary...but i dun think its serious so dun worry...i can srill rmb my name right...

anw after school today,went to far east kfc to eat with joey n shitian...then right on the way to mrt station in the underpass tt time...shi tian saw her mortal...n joey n i were lyk "sophia","sophia" then she turn back...must be wondering who the hell was calling her...then her frens also look back larh...then aftertt i took a close look at her at the tap card there...haha...n you know smth...i was in the same mrt cabin(???) as my mortal!!!!at first right tt lim shi tian was lyk pushing my head to turn to the right to face all the 106 pple...but obviously i resisted cos my hair was messy at least wad i thought cos when i cover tt part of my forehead...and i know i vry SHY de ok...n QUIET too...so DEMURE right?!i bet everyone's answer will be lyk YES...you know?!Y-E-S spells YES!which means tt you agree w smth...haha...wadeva....then in mrt itself then shi tian asked me to ask her wad class she frm in tns then i ask...i know i vry GUAI can?! then ask me ask her does she know who is someone whom i cant rmb...then i saw carly--brenda's mortal so i told shi tian n joey n apparantly carly heard me n so she asked ni min(sry for pronouncing her name wrongly...i know i suck at pronouncing things...mel can become meow...haiz)--xiao ting's mortal...to ask us who are we...then i was lyk oh *pointing to shi tian*she's sophia's angel...then i said..oh,my mortal is someone here...then aftertt she was lyk thinking i am brenda i think then i said to ni min my mortal is behind u then someone i dunno was lyk asking me does she know who you are so i said ya...n i bet she's disappointed..maybe not...tt she cant go bao4 liao4 my shen1 fen4 lorh...haha...i know my mortal vry clever larh...so fast know who i m...not lyk me took lyk 5 months maybe to find out who my angel was then in the end abandon her...i know i m evil...but now i hv since changed for the better can?i m such a nice person right???haha...so ego...got it fm shitian...haha...ok nvm...then carly asked me how does brenda look lyk then i dunno how to describe so i was lyk telling yujia(my mortal...not lim yu jia!!!)tt if she passes by hadley then see me then brenda is somewhere there then i show her but sadly hadley's at the end...

anw to conclude it was such an interesting experience...yay!it's lyk all at one go i know so many juniors!!!k fine i oso know xianyue one...but sadly i dun rmb their names...n i bet they dun rmb ours...haha...but these pple are only my juniors if their consider me their senior...but i bet they dun even know who am i...jus tt i m yujia's angel n so fm 206 n so know who their angels are...nvm...at least i still hv my nice nice mortal...yay!

sports fest was even more interesting...with yubo(w her guitar) sitting behind me n shitian...haha...i know i was rather irritating by keep on looking back then stare at yubo....haha...but her "roar" is lyk so -insert word- but shi tian's roar is worse...but hv male n female version...super funny...haha...oh n i oso took photo of yubo w the hadley souvenir on her chest n forehead..if only i can upload it...anw no co person knows of this blog's existence...haha...

oh then i found out tt ------ cut her hair till short but then i dint get chance to see...then claudia was lyk i want to see...haha..ok not vry funny...

anw me shi yun,claudia n abigail(tay) roamed around j8...n we were lyk trying to imitate ------...i think it was interesting yet evil afterall she's our senior...oh n i saw celine,ruimin,kelly,then cos ruimin was w someone shiyun knows so i practically jerkked shi yun to get her to turn around to wave to her...n apparently scared her...haha...i m so capable right...n then claudia and abigail left so shi yun n i went to buy bubble tea...n she asked me nt to drink blue coral jus bcos of smth...then we walked all the way back home...n my legs were lyk aching...A-C-H-I-N-G ACHING...which means pain...haha..i m lame...yay!wadeva...great exercise though...

tmr got prac...haiz...i think my standard has been dropping so much tt my seniors hv alr given up on me...or isit tt i hv alr given up on myself?!haiz

me am a loser...anw sheena thinks yujia's letter was depressing...maybe bcos she has a depressed angel...or jus tt she was influenced by my depressing posts...haiz...i know i vry influential...thank you thank you!!!!or maybe it had nothing to do w me...jus tt the stress n emotions are getting onto her nerves..or smth...

yujia(my dearest mortal):if u read this...dun be depressed ok?dun learn from me...if liddat everyday u will be depressed...then one day u might get depression...liddat ur health wont be good...nothing must happen to u..bcos u are my dear dear mortal...must stay happy always k!i dun think tt was great encouragement,shall continue in the letter...cos some things are too private to post in a alr dead blog...haha...i m sure since nobody ever comes here...

the holidays are FINALLY here...but aftertt in term 2 nd to change seats liao...haiz...n hv tests yet again but hv learning journey before tt...

anw here's my bust schedule for mar hols

mon:co

tue:dunno yet,math pt(?)

wed:dunno yet,math pt(?)

thur:co full day

fri:co full day

sat:co

sun:tll

there goes my precious precious holidays....but nvm,getting a gold with honours is more impt then my hols...yes!

ok byebye...tag more k!:)

2007-03-03T19:47:00.000+08:00

hello!
hvnt updated for a long long time....
let me see...k shall start updating fm wed,the last day of feb...

-wed
finished the clay thingy n mine is lyk super fabulous...yay!!!can u believe it?NO.k wadeva...i hv a feeling its going to break in the kiln...or rather CRACK....
nothing much happened...

-thurs
the official co day...where bad things often happen to me...but i think my luck is changing...ahaha...hopefully that is...
dint get scolded or anything liddat...had dazu throughout n i realised tt i cant concentrate at all...my mind will lyk float off to homework,mugging for sa,holidays,blablabla...then i suddenly go back...haiz anw i realised tt my standard hv lyk dropped ALOT since the dec hols...u see wad holidays can do to you?!not tt my standard was lyk great or wadsoever...so now u can imagine how bad i sound not tt it can be heard really...k i so totally know tt i play lyk super softly tt when other pple play n then i play u cant hear me AT ALL...except myself...and jia hui spent so much time trying to get me to play loud....I M SO SORRY...i sometimes do feel tt i m a burden n a good-for-nothing,you know....ahhh....
oh n i had this super bad headache...after dazu went home...ate alittle n then watched lyk only 10 min of hana-kimi n i requested to have time to sleep till bathing time...first time ever...when i can miss a tv show to sleep...then went to bathe...then blow dry hair,dilly-dallied n it was lyk 9.30pm...n i requested to sleep again...until 10.30...then at 10.30 i was waken up but i requested to sleep again...set alarm at 2.30...and my father was woken up by it...n i wasnt...btw he's lyk in the next room...but he nvr wake me up...n finally at 4.30am on fri,i woke up...can u believe it?!haha...n at 5am i started mugging for history sa...isnt it an accomplishment of super last-minuteness???

-fri
another official co day!
history was quite ok i think but i rushed thru the last qn..can be inferred fm handwriting...ahaha...
had dazu first before xiaozu....
k i know i need to STOP hun4-ing during dazu...it isnt really healthy for ur standard...at first can play then suddenly cant...haiz....
during xiaozu was taught movement...to the man4 ban2 part so we were accompaniment...haha i know zhonghu sucks without valerie n jia hui...otherwise,zhonghu sucks WITH ME AROUND...ahaha...i m so totally proud of this fact...ya sure...wadeva...i was lyk super super nervous when valerie's row was called out to listen n see,so vianne n me were left n i was concentrating on the notes cos there's no valerie to look at and also in tt row there's willette n suchin too...all the pro-ded pple...haiz...then their comment was zhonghu need to move more...i think there's more to it but it wasnt said out loud....
i m lyk so jealous of valerie,jia hui n vianne cos they can lyk play so loudly without spoiling the sound of it n so nicely too...ahhh..how?i m going to die during zoutai...hopefully we will get above 80 marks or so wls said...oh n valerie(sheenia/sheena's cousin!so coincidental right?!) can play zhuan shu tian shi,zen me ban,an jing,ju hua tai on the zhonghu jus by listening to vianne sing....i dint want to learn cos i dint want to spoil the nice nice songs and oso i want to train my ears to be as good as hers...yes!shall prac very very hard!n i shall mug too!

-sat!today!founder's day!
the GOH's speech was lyk 1/2 hour long lorh....aiyoh...keep on saying she this thing she that thing...all about herself...wad mp's wife wad climb mt fuji...so proud for wad?!but at least i think she looks lyk a nice person...btw though mrs tan's speech was considered short as compared to hers,i think it was much inspirational..."never give up,never never never"...smth liddat...so i shal work hard to play my part in helping rgco achieve gold with honours for syf07...yes!
started mugging for geog but to no avail...n right i prac-ed n i sounded horrible...ahh...shall work harder...realised tt i hvnt done my homework this whole week...shall do last-minute things again...HOW?!i hvnt got back my hcl fa qn paper back...how?!AHH..

wish me luck k!for improving my standard in zhonghu in less than a week,but wed 7 march...for zoutai...theres so many things to do but there is so little time...how i wish there is lyk 36 hours in a day...more time for play,homework,blogging,prac-ing n jus plain slacking...how i wish...

anw i will be leaving class early on wed...will miss more than half of philo and tt lesson is lyk so impt can?!the presentations on euthanasia,wad we will be asked to write a journal abt for philo sa....can u believe it?!shall ask jenny to take notes for me....yay!but still it isnt good to miss class to go for zoutai with tt yucky white long-sleeved blouse,black knne-length skirt,stackings,court shoes,school balzer....haiyoh,,,i wonder how ugly/weird i will look like lorh...

2007-02-24T13:41:00.000+08:00

hello...
just realised tt i hvnt been updating for a long long time so here i m...haha
lalala...my phone is ok again!yay!for a cost...hehe...

thursday
sucky day cos ms xu(eng relief,qian qian's senior, ex-rgco cellist who thinks tt wls likes to touch pple(according to shi yun)...its true though) ask me to collect wksts rite then i collect lorh but pple is either nvr finish or nvr bring or jus nvr give me so i ask for extension.then the plot outline pple nvr finish...fine!i prefer being ms ong's cle rep cos at least i hv lena w me...now i m alone...i know i m evil...wadeva..
then co prac,wls came n ask us to play liangfeng n when come to zhonghu part she ask us play one by one...n you know what?!i screwed up...ahhhh!!!then she was lyk asking jia hui who is in syf...then she say alr i bet wls was lyk thinking...wth...why liddat...tt shui zhun zen me ke yi???? then she was lyk "yi ding yao lian de...zhe bu fen shi -blah blah blah-..shi qu bi sai de..."smth along the lines of i desperately nd to practise alot n hard too to improve...and worse she said it infront of the whole xianyue then i felt so LOSER, so PATHETIC...wad will the seniors think of me?!huh!why my standard drop until liddat?then yi fei was lyk "comforting" me...felt better...thanks yi fei!
disappointed jia hui n valerie AGAIN!i m such a bad bad junior...maybe its i who disappointed myself...haiz
such a sucky day!:(

friday
sli!
tried to collect wksts n practically half the class nvr bring...wad a loser n pathetic eng rep i m...so in the end jus gave wad i cld...
after sli,rushed to put wksts in pigeon hole then met up w claudia n shi yun in 203 classroom...saw kelly...went downstairs w shi yun,pack my things and then go upstairs...then we started praccing and i sucked!
ahhh... then afterthat we went out to eat...at foyer saw co rehearsing for founder's day...then we left school...at far east after much deliberation we settled for han's hor fun n dory fish...three pple share two dishes...haha...then shi yun n i bought a bottle of coke each n bloated up our stomachs which dint make us burp throughout dazu as predicted...luckily...
dazu was sucky cos i played suckily...how?!zoutai is lyk 2 weeks away???
dint have xiaozu in the end...

saturday
today!
co extra prac was quite ok...but i think i disappointed jia hui yet AGAIN...i think u all read until bored liao rite?but i will continue cos i live a boring life...haiz...but i think my yin zhun improved a teeny weeny bit cos hv markings...and liangfeng too cos jia hui taught me today...anw i think my brain processes things very slowly,thus making myself n other pple feel annoyed or tt i m lyk a little kid of three..haiz...maybe all tt tv hv made me an idiot...
feeling rather sad cos the summatives are coming n i everthing also yi4 zhi1 ban4 jie2 one...lyk tt how to pass???then i cant possibly hun4 throughout the whole of dazu n then zoutai n then syf rite???n i cant possibly play at tt volume where no one can hear me rite???i nd to contribute to the sound...this is an orchestra...thus it needs the volume n sound frm every single instrument...
why liddat one, me???suddenly "plop" and i entangled myself in this mess i created and fell from the middle of the ladder to the floor(dropping of standard)...how come?!bcos i m a stupid n lazy n idiotic big fat bum...YES!

ok...my posts are all so boring n depressing...i know cos i lead a boring n depressing life...but is lightened up by my dear friends n nice seniors...thank you all so much!

2007-02-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

today is tues so today hv extra prac...i think i yet again disappointed jia hui AGAIN!n vianne's little secret sort of got -insert word- today by someone who knew who said the name of vianne's so-called crush unintentionally...
what happened before:
at first she was super hyper n happy cos she thought ------ will be going n she can practically STARE at her thruout...but then she realised tt she wont be coming n was vry angry w claudia yet at the same time,depressed,sad,disappointed,etc etc...then wilette was lyk saying i think i noe who u all talking abt then vianne was lyk huh!who!tell me!i m going to kill u! smth liddat at least then i think i was a bad bad junior again when i said "u noe smth" when she asked me "do i know anything?no right?" then so she said "ehh,u so mean..."haiz...why i liddat...then prac started then vianne started talking to claudia abt blahblahblah n then
IT JUST HAPPENED...
shi yun was lyk huh?!even though she noe who the person is she still dunno wad vianne said n the more nei4 mu4 news...n i shall not tell her nor anyone else...
oh n jia hui said shit today n shi yun was lyk shi ting...then i was lyk ya shi ting...i totally forgotten tt xianyue also hv shi ting n maybe jia hui thought we were talking abt tt shi ting when we were actually talking abt 205's shi ting...so weird...
anw i was told to...u can guess noe...but no prizes cos its rather obvious...PLAY LOUDER YET AGAIN N AGAIN...why liddat one me?my sucky yin zun,speed,volume,rhythm...ahh...n my kuaiban still sucks tts why i dint dare to play infront of jia hui today when she asked me to play...vianne is lyk so good at kuai ban...i m so jealous!
at the end of xianyue extra prac right,me n claudia were lyk trying desperately to kai1 dao3 shi yun abt seniors then she became so pissed...
ahh... i think ------ is angry+pissed+sad cos today at first she ignore me...me feeling sad...haiz...

2007-02-12T20:55:00.000+08:00

i m so IDIOT!me is a total IDIOT...u know wad...i forgot my keys n ended up having to wait downstairs of a hdb flat on a hothot day n looking so weird w my zhonghu for my father...u see i super stupid right or otherwise forgetful...ahh...why liddat?ended up having to wait for abt 1 hour plus...w ppl who walked past staring lyk i was some illegal immigrant or as if i was carrying a bomb in the zhonghu case lorh...i know its big but then its not my fault right...haiyoh...n i saw cindy's(not the one frm 206,but the one frm marymount) mum...she was lyk
she: ni3 bei4 suo3 chu1 lai3 huh! (smth liddat cant really rmb)
me: mei3 you3 la4...wo3 wang4 le4 dai4 suo3 shi3
*she walks away n comes back w someone else*
she(to tt person): ...ta4 de4 xiao3 xue3 tong3 xue2...
*she walks into the lift w tt person n waves,while tt person wad practically staring at me n then saying orh*

SO SUPER EMBARRASSING!ahh...

anw i really regretted wad i did today as in on the way to far east...wadeva happened...me n shi yun were so super evil...i m really sorry...
k.we(shi tian,her fren,shi yun n me) were walking outside e school then shi yun saw ------she was so freaked out...then i oso became freaked out...dunno how to approach her so ended up trying all ways n means to avoid her...then at busstop right...me n shi yun purposely go right in then quite far away fm her...at first she was looking out for the bus then she turned a 180 deg round n i bet she saw me n shi yun...n we were lyk "OH!"haha.then the bus came n everyone was lyk crowding arnd trying to get on the bus then when i can go up right then she was lyk to my northeast...or rather next to me except infront abit so i was lyk practically stoning n shi yun was behind me trying to hide then the pple behind shi yun were lyk thinking we were crazy then i let one of them go in first then aftertt cos the bus was getting fuller by the minute n she was safely inside the bus we went up only to see her again so we were lyk rushing past her...if i was her,i will be so sad n angry n pissed tt my juniors are such an ungrateful lot...so gd to them then they treat me liddat...i m really sorry...really really...i even thought of smsing her but then its abit awkward then if she really dint see us then it will be so paiseh n shi yun talked me out of it...actually she dint all she did was to sms me a 'dont'...ok wadeva...
so the conclusion of the story is: be nice to whoever is nice to u,its better to make a fren then to make an enemy...but i m pretty sure ------ wont hate us afterall she's a senior n she's been thru all these before i guess to be a little scared of seniors...hehe...but i dunno why we were scared in the first place...haha...paiseh...but afterall she's my direct senior as in direct direct n she's super nice...ok fine i disappointed her yet again...to have me as a junior really unlucky is all i can say...haiz...jus hope tt she isnt angry or pissed or anything...shall not avoid seniors anymore...shall jus da4 fang1 de4 say hello to them unless they ignore u lorh...then it will be so sad...
oh...n right we ate kfc...long tym no eat liao...n rightme n shi yun went back to school w ying yin cos 190,132 n 105 dint come tt fast at least n so we decided to walk back n guess wad jus as we were abt to reach school,190 zoomed past n haha.we cld hv gotten to school earlier lorh...
okok...anw tmr we r hving extra prac again n i shall not be as slow as last week again...yay!but i cant guarantee tt...hehe...n i shall remind vianne to take the mirrors...yes...
today's prac session wasnt really effective...afterall prac w/o seniors just cant work cos we often cant hear our own mistakes...but at least we ate kfc n shi yun n i walked back to school w ying yin n then i dint waste all my time watching tv...
anw happy early valentine's n happy chinese new year!
gong xi fa cai!hong bao na lai!:)wadeva...i m super lame...n ego...yes i know tt...aint i so self aware...i know my identity know...haha...why digress until philo liao???
hehe...shall go do hw now...

2007-02-10T23:12:00.000+08:00

ok i just concluded tt i m seriously going to die this year!boo...
i totally dun understand geog at all n my father is going to make me stop going for tll...actually i m a teeny weeny bit happy but i will die w/o math tuition cos our teacher is quite inexperienced cos she's relief...practically all our teacher's are relief...why liddat?ms li going to leave liao n mrs fahy's last day's on valentine's n mrs yap going on maternity leave sooner or later...haiz...why liddat one...then our teachers for:
english: relief for abt 3 months after mrs yap go on maternity leave
math:ms nah...at first was ms sia but she leave liao...i seriously think ms nah is nice n boonyi noe her n her bro...n i think her bro is in tll eng ms chan's class...really...benjamin mah...so benjamin nah right...i dunno...she allow us to eat sweets...yay!
hcl:mrs poon who always digresses drng lesson time
bio:mrs fahy leaving n we r having a experienced teacher...lucky we got bio first otherwise we wld nvr be taught by mrs fahy again...she's really so nice lorh...i lyk her...so sad she nd to go to ireland to take care of her in-laws...
lit:mrs yap...so we hving relief teachers
history:ms li leaving sooner or later also...haiz then we hving new teacher permanent hopefully...but i lyk ms li...her face goes red wehn she laughs lyk shit...haha
geog:ms leong...nice...but i dun understand
art:for these two weeks,ms ng...u see n-g,ng...yay!she's nice...but ms tong also nice!
philo:mr toh...he's quite nice but why must he call me to read n then tell my opinion?i cant think deeply u noe...haiz...

anw today we had xiaozu then dazu...n valerie said tt i nd to play louder AGAIN...n jiahui say tt next time zhonghu ppl nd to be strong ones...ya...true...n i so so so cant play loud bcos my yin zun sucks lyk shit...ahh...n today i alr played lyk the loudest i cld so far drg dazu n...haiz...i think i nd to use more strength...syf coming le nd to buck up...ahh...all the stress!:( exams coming too...boo...why liddat?must play more chang gong n shi liu fen yin fu...yes!
oh n ytd's dazu was quite fun cos vianne said smth abt someone to someone n i was the nessenger n apparently i knew who she was toking abt...n she was so pissed tt so many pple knew...in actual fact me,a sec2(one of the someones mentioned),abt 2 seniors tt she crush tt senior someone...but ytd she say no...but she crush someone in her batch but in order to nt wad right then she said ------...ya...i dunno...lucky no co pple noe this blog otherwise vianne will KILL me..pretend i dint say anything...oh n i heard jiahui telling vianne to talk to me...maybe she noes tt i feel bored or wad...hmm...or maybe she see vianne talking to claudia...i dunno...actually i dun mind...cos i m abit deaf so i cant really hear clearly in all tt noise drng dazu...so...haha...not much point really...n i think suchin is really proded...joyce oso...can play banhu so well...yay!fri i can go arnd telling pple suchin is my senior...yay!n i bet there will be alot of applause after bai nian n mang chun...they are seriously nice!
saw shi tian, shit n carissa today...when going to ks chee...then shi yun,claudia,yi fei n me were lyk looking at hse prac cos we had a break before dazu starts n we saw vianne n i saw jenny...was looking for my mortal but i dint even noe how she look lyk so haha...dint find her...kehyujia...be on the lookout ok...haha...

2007-02-05T15:21:00.000+08:00

long time no blog...haha
was busy doing bio pt last week and so...ok just to share some news....read on

1.my mortal knows who i m liao...n i m so pissed...the sec 1s are so clever
2.bio pt going to be returned this thurs i think
3.i m in syf!(: and this is only bcos 1 zhonghu senior quit so 2 of us zhonghu juniors replace her
4.tmr i hving extra prac sessions w vianne n the seniors(not really sure who will be going)
5.one person from 106 is in co and tt is someone i dunno...
6.this week the sec 1s are starting their cca...ok its obvious right?
7.daren is the 2007 singapore superstar(if tt is wad u call it...since there's a vietnam superstar n malaysia superstar)
oh n i think the vietnam superstar wadeva her name is is very act cute lorh...but she quite pretty larh...n i so dun understand wad she singing
8.my tagboard is dead.yay.wadeva.

ok...tts abt all...if this can revive my tagboard...if only...haha...wadeva...its only 3.30 now n i wanna SLEEP as in in the afternoon...nearly slept drng history n english...haiz...
good night everyone.....Zzzzzz

2007-01-20T22:29:00.000+08:00

diya is in n carrie is out.
daren is in n nat is out.
changed the songs....yay....
daren sang this love
and nat sang uptown girl.
i think i m biased.
wadeva.
feel lyk eating kfc shrooms burger w a pepsi n cheese fries.
n did u noe tt every can of coca cola contains 7 spoons of sugar.
i m so so so random.
n did u noe tt info was given by honglaoshi.
oh and she was lyk sleeping during assembly.
n we had bellydancers w some drummers for assembly.
oh n one of them was lyk while dancing keep on looking at the corner of the hall n smiling.
dunno at who.
oh n there was this bus incident tt happened ytd.
shall post abt it next.
buhbye!

2007-01-20T21:18:00.000+08:00

i m such a loser...ahhh...how i jus cant concentrate in class lorh...i seriously suck...i jus hate it but wad can i do???ahh...
yay my mortal seems lyk a nice person n i m sure she is!whee...
anw co on thur is...all i can say is HAIZ...my xin1 qing2 alr really nt gd liao after we lyk sort of got told off in front of everyone by wls and she was lyk so xiao1 zhang1 lorh...

"she": aiyoh, ni2 men2 you4 bei4 ma4 le4!

me(cos i dint exactly hear): huh?

"she": ni2 men2 you4 bei4 ma4 le4 hor!

me:[ignore her...i noe i m rude but i was alr feeling vry bad le lorh...]

"she"(talk to zx--sec 2 zhonghu who was prac-ing changdi kuaiban): ni2 bu4 ke2 yi3 (bla bla bla) [then she go n move her gong]

then zx was lyk smile at her lorh(i think thank her)

then we go keep things...

then "she" go talk to our senior who was lyk behind us all along(who came aft we got told off)..

"she": they must move their wrist(then she go put up her hands w her elbow still down then she move in a vry stiff way)

our senior: ya.we are training them alr...

then when she saw us at the side she was lyk wu3 nai4 de4 xiao4 lorh...

haiz...u see i m such a loser...keep on disappointing our seniors...

i really want to go syf...but i m nt gd enough...how?

the syf namelist nt out yet leh...ahh...cant stand e suspense...but nvm...i noe i wont be in cos u see my standard...u will puke...haiz...

then ytd co was better i think cos wls was at co trials so valerie was making us prac our liangfeng kuaiban...then when i finally got it...the next moment i cant get it alr...haiz...

oh n jiahui tried training me to play loud w every sound hving the same volume n speed in the same gong...then i was lyk playing w alot of strength...then she left n when she came back i was lyk back to square one...haiz...i m a loser...

then she taught me again...then she demo on my zhonghu then ask me try...when i try rite i keep on hitting her...leg n then hand...i m so sorry!then she ask me to prac,so i prac...

haiz i think i back to square one liao now....u see i m a loser!!!ahh...

this type of standard how to go syf???u tell me???n i jus read in a senior's blog tt they hv lyk finalised the syf namelist liao lorh...so will i be in it?will i?am i even gd enough?haiz...i m a loser...

i feel lyk crying...we are lyk the lousiest of the lot lorh...then we r lyk spoil our seniors' reputation...they r lyk so great n we r lyk....haiz...when u hear us u will be speechless nt bcos we r lyk so gd but bcos u hv nvr heard a person play so badly before...except those jus learn maybe...

yay!i m a loser...

n u noe wad...for bio pt i got something related to s-e-x...haiz...some type of infection when u do IT w different pple...eew...

n it reminds me of thur aft co...

shiyun n me were on 132 bus upper deck cos lower deck was lyk full...then she was sitting behind me cos no space liao...then we saw something...

lyk to the northwest of me rite were two pple in sch uniform n u can guess wad they were doing...one is a guy n the other a girl...hv u guessed it?ok let me tell u...the guy's arms were lyk over the girl's waist.then he let go.then the girl pulled his hand over her waist.then i saw some movement of his hand.then he was lyk resting on her shoulder lorh.all i can say is "eww".

then shiyun saw behind her got someone mimicking them lorh.n its a guy.so sick rite?pollute my eyes...haiz...

oh n jenny said i look lyk i will become a nurse when i grow up...n ruimin said shi tian look lyk lao fu zi lorh....so funny...haha...then shi tian was lyk saying i be doctor lorh...then she say u jealous i got sexy legs huh?so funny lorh...then she say jenny is bargirl then do pole dance.then fall down then fall into the hands of a cheekopek...haha...aiyah then i see the time lyk abt 5 mins aft class is lyk supposed to start so i look out of the door window n then when i wanted to go call mrs yap,i saw her,so i hurry back then tell them mrs yap come liao...then tried to get back to seat...was hurrying then i "jump" over jenny's legs lorh.then mrs yap came in n i was lyk jus nice standing up ready to greet her...i feel so proud of myself lorh...accomplished such a task in lyk maybe 2-3 mins...haha...then jenny was lyk keep on laughing abt the "jumping"...haha...i m such a GREAT el rep....i shld be proud of myself rite?but i m a LOSER...

2007-01-10T16:37:00.000+08:00

ok ok i forget to update...now click on abigail's link...then u can see the cute dolphin...not?!ok nvm...haha.ok tmr hv co...so excited...haha.i m suay n evil...ok...byebye

2007-01-09T20:32:00.000+08:00

hello.hv some super ~~sad~~ happy news to share...i m a eng rep...n the lit rep is rachel gan lorh...its lyk last year lorh...hv a feeling is ******* recommend one but anw...i jus realised fm a senior's blog tt wls think we did horribly for ccao performance n tt if in syf we wld get oni a bronze...so fm now on must jiayou...w oni 12 more dazus to go,according to co board and another senior...we really really must...so now we nd real pro-ded ppl lyk jenny n brenda...so JOIN RGCO!haha.ok larh...i m rather paiseh larh...our standard nt vry gd but still put u all down...i think is all bcos of me...cos i totally hun4 gou4 qu4 lorh...so paiseh...so sry...u see i let down my senior again...n somemore my huibao result tt paper hv dont let (my senior) down...haiz...dun want to mention names...but they are all vry nice pple...haiz...ok larh.. shall go prac liao then do research on the us judicial system for lit for tkmb...so troublesome...
oh ya.our grp is vry noisy according to shi tian...but is nt my fault cos i vry vry quiet except i will start laughing bcos of nothing or when i turn back see ruimin's expression then want to laugh...but anw its vry fun...haha.i lyk grp discussions...
oh n i shall be a nice person...pple...pls go click on abigail's name in the links...her blog address is changed n she asked me to tell pple...so ya...u see i so nice rite...ok actually i m nt vry nice cos i m vry evil cos she asked me lyk so long ago in her tagboard n i now then tell...hehe...paiseh...
ok then bb

2007-01-01T15:50:00.001+08:00

first post of the year!!!haha
today is alr 2007!two more days to school...
haiz...nvm...
lets just hope tt this new year will bring new hope n new experiences!
okok shall fill u in on ccao...
it was ok actually other than the fact tt i missed one little part cos i was flipping the page too slowly...then some parts i hun4 guo4 qu4 one...haiz...n i think the sec 4'06 seniors saw....i m so so so sorry...
n in the sec 1 grps tt came to our booth i dint see anyone i know...nvm...
ok then saturday's wedding...my cousin's wedding...
the traditional part wasnt vry entertaining except tt the groom was asked to do a dance w the guys tt came w him n then drng the tea ceremony he was calling so loud in cantonese: "(how my cousin calls tt person) yum cha!"anw he's nt a cantonese lyk us but a hainanese i think so he say got a bit weird...anw yum cha means drink tea or yin3 cha2 in chinese...
the dinner nt really nice though its in orchard hotel along anderson road there..so we did pass by rgs...haha...lyk always its rather dark...but the mango pudding was nice but the serving is small though it was made in the shape of a big heart w a cherry in the middle n then scooped...so its vry untidy n only one person got the cherry...no actually half a cherry...n tt's nt me...doesnt matter really....
right now i m stuck in my room...while my parents are talking w my neighbours n their parents fm korea...i noe i m vry unsociable...vry unfriendly...lets give myself a new year resolution: to become friendlier...haha...
okok...gtg now...bb

2007-01-01T15:50:00.000+08:00

2006-12-26T15:24:00.000+08:00

christmas is over.today is boxing day.anniversary of the tsunami.ccao rehearsal.3 days to ccao.2 days for me to get my clothes.abt 1 more week to school reopening.AHHHHH...
ok anw let me blog abt ccao rehearsal today...
actually i was nt supposed to be playing cos i was supposed to be moving chairs.but now no nd to move chairs.then dunno why they ask me to play...why me?????i vry scared i ruin the good good reputation of rgco...cos i cant play fast enough BUT BUT BUT i finally can do the fast fast fingering of kuai ban...BUT BUT BUT nt including yin zun n the coordination of my right hand...u see my hands are vry chi2 dun4...as in the fan3 ying4 chi2 dun4...so afterall i still play vry slow...nt only the kuai ban...so i m vry lan4...so i nd to prac even even MORE!ok...anw i saw shi tian n carissa at mini-amphi n foyer there...but oni shi tian saw me i guess...n shi tian u better go talk to carissa ok...
i think i spend alot of time watching tv nowadays...so in comparison the time i use to prac n on computer is lyk vry little lorh...how arhh?i will die when school reopens...haiz...
seems lyk i was rather random huh...anw my left hands hurts alot...fm the elbow all the way to my hand itself...ok nvm...
ok larh shall nt complain anymore...byebye...
ok tt was rather random...nvm..another short post...

2006-12-22T20:58:00.000+08:00

sry for nt updating for so long...i was vry vry busy this week or at least tt is wad i think cos mon n wed i hv replacement class n practically the whole week all co...but at least i hv come to my senses...
ok ok shall nt talk abt depressing stuff...aniwae hana kimi or hua yang shao nian shao nv is so uber nice lorh...the OST oso lorh...knew abt it fm yu le bai fen bai n also fm yujia's blog...u see curiosity isnt tt harmful as to kill the cat...u might even find some treasure in the end lyk i found this nice nice show...KO one is oso nice...i lyk it too...n i found out tt yujia's fave yan ya lun's real name is wu geng lin lerh...if its nt wrong...u see i get influenced easily...nt tt i lyk him jus tt fei lun hai is rather good i think but tt chen yi ru is vry niang...ok nvm...i shall nt comment...
haha...today was my mother's office christmas party n i got a total of six presents frm four pple...inclusive of a shirt,chocolates,kck craft punchers,lollipops,pop-up stickers,handmade mini felt magnets in the shape of gloves,a plastic box w a pencil n crayons,n a cushion to rest on when using the mouse...thank you my mother's colleagues!
yay christmas is coming!
so here i m wishing everybody a merry merry christmas n a happy new year!
*MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR*

2006-12-10T12:51:00.000+08:00

hi i nvr go for the wedding lunch cos apparently my flight back was at 7.30pm korean time so 6.30 singapore time n i came back today 10/12 at abt 1.20am liddat...so tired larh...asiana airline is so so so nt gd...oh rather is i unlucky...cos airplane no tv...but i watched mr bean, n the ant bully on the mainscreen...so funny(both larh)...
my trip was rather fun!e tour grp was vry big abt 50 over ppl so we split into two buses...but even b4 we left singapore there was a problem..we were nt leaving at 11.45pm on 2/12 but meeting at airport at 11.45pm then leaving at 2.10am on 3/12...but actually oni me n my parents got this misunderstanding...luckily down there got some person fm ctc...then we noe..but then my parents kept on complaining to her n then they realised it wasnt her fault then they stop so we were lyk there trying to kill 3 n 1/2 hrs cos we reach at 8.15 liddat...n by the time we got into the boarding area there we were lyk so tired cos nvr sleep in afternoon...haiz...but when we reach there rite...everything went rather smoothly so ok lorh...
just some highlights of the trip...
jeju teddy bear museum!
yes...THERE IS A GOONG SECTION WHERE ALL(NT REALLY) THE GOONG BEARS ARE!
there is alfred n the cast(nt all tt were shown at e end of each ep..)n theres the LV bear n the miniest bear n the 125karat gold bear...vry nice..go n see for urself...n they do sell the goong bears(cast in sku uniform(except hyorin in tt pink dress n oni 1 male bear cos yul n shin will look the same) n alfred..)..alfred cost 35 000 won tt means 50 over singapore dollars n its so stiff n hard n the leg has words on it...limited edition though...almost everything there is ex...vry ex...
everland!
went on the viking...so much bigger than the escape one n i dunno whether its scarier cos i sat at the fourth row fm the back w my father n it seems the same but again i nvr scream...dunno why...
safari world!
up close w tigers,bears n lions...we were in a bus for sure...haha...the bears are so big but cute...they hv lots of saliva n its so disgusting but some can walk using the hind legs n all tt...n we saw two lions mating...tts wad the guide said...i dunno...the female was licking the back of the male...i dunno
mystery mansion!
shoot ghosts using laser guns...i tot i wld b scared but i was too engrossed in shooting i dint bother abt looking at how scary the ambience was n apparently i dint understand wad exactly were they talking abt...
global village!
its lyk a small small world in disneyland...showcases the culture of different countries...but i dint see singapore...we are too small...haiz
amazon express!
flow in a rubber thingy on water n bumping into things...no fun...
i dint take the roller coasters cos the kiddy one is small n no fun n the big one my parents dun want to go cos my mother cant cos she has motion sickness n my father dun want cos it will be too much for him n i dun want to go alone cos i dint make any friends w the children as in close enough to go w them cos anyway those who went were boys(i overheard when they were planning where to go) so i dint go w them n i dunno abt the others....but i dun think i can take it either cos its so huge n there are those overturn ones(both)...
skiing experience at ski resort!
i think i can ski...i dunno...cos our guides made us try one by one n i went down the beginner slope rather well n i dint fall n i stopped n i was able to turn as i stopped...i dint noe how i did it...so my ego went up n i went higher the slope w my father cos my mother backache so dint go ski at all...n i skied down...then on the way up again w the skiing boards still on,i went backwards n i freaked out...so scary...luckily i stopped in time n nobody is behind..so nvr hit anyone...n my ego went down n i dun dare to go so high liao...but then i skied again n it started ok then i cant stop n infront hv pple n i tot i will hit into them n they werent moving so i dropped sideways onto the hard hard snow...n my butt hurt...then i dunno how to stand up cos the skiing boards were so long n the shoes are heavy...so i waited for my father to slowly come down...i dunno how come larh but my father's way of skiing is practically dragging his way down the slope...n he fell twice just standing up n on the way down...he said he cant balance...i dunno...but i think i m just nt built for sports...even though after tt it was ok n i dared again n i had fun...n anyway u can sweat there noe even though its cold....try it!!!
lotte world!
another theme park but this is indoor n there is a outdoor part...
viking again!haha...
this is smaller but this time cos too many pple liao so i sat w my father two rows fm the centre...n again i nvr scream...
adventures of sindbad!
lyk a mini-nt-scary-w-oni-two-mini-slopes water roller coaster n skulls on the side n all tt...but its so fake n so nt scary...everything gets spoit when u see the sign "exit" n "please remain seated with your hands on the handle"or smth liddat...
then the other rides are nt worth mentioning...i wanted to take pharoah's fury but the queue was too long n my parents cant take it n i think there is a overturn part if i m nt wrong...but i think i regretted nt taking it cos aftertt the pple on the bus were lyk saying it was uber nice...haiz...must take next time...but i dun wanna go alone...
for both lotte world n everland we can oni take 5 rides cos the ticket is oni valid for five n if u want to take more u must pay...
the food is rather nice...but i still cant take kimchi n their chinese food is weird n their seaweed is nice n the dong1 fen3 too...their ginseng chicken too...but no point shopping there cos its so expensive n nt suitable cos its winter clothes...but its nice noe...
jus to add on...we went to an extra place...myeongdong...the filming location of goong...but it was nt mentioned jus tt i found out on the tour2korea webbie...tt part where chaegyung n shin kissed in the main street w pple watching...
well but thruout i was envying a 12 yr old boy's great relationship w his 9 yr old sister(age all this yr one)...he let her rest on his shoulder larh n even though they often squabble but they were always laughing...they hv fun...alot...while i m always frowning as in on the bus n his father's jokes are so funny....haha...sometimes when the girl want to rest even though she's nt sleeping rite then the boy dun want then keep on pushing her away rite then their father will tell the girl why u keep on want to go to his armpit there...vry nice smell isit...something liddat but i noe this is nt exactly funny but they are a happy family n they hv fun together...
i really want a sibling!!!!!i dun want to be the person alwaes at fault n the person to be scolded when i m jus trying to give my opinion or jus talk n the person who is alwaes alone at home facing the walls or tv or computer w no one to talk to,w no one to play with n alwaes wrong when my parents quarrel...it wasnt so bad when my grandmother was still alive n we do hv some ok days...but now...i jus want some peace...i m really tired!
anyway i think i enjoyed my trip but maybe i dint cos everyday i m so tired...i dunno...but its a pity we dint get to see snow fall...but i saw it before actually in hokkaido but nvm lets jus hope tt carissa will see it...n she get to enjoy n all the other tourists to korea...it will be a great experience...

2006-12-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

hello!
hehe todae i spend alot of $money$...bought ipod nano n adidas shoe...yay!going to bring those along on holiday....yay....i jus realised i m a spendthrift...spend alot of money...but i promised my parents to be a good good gurl so my dad bought those for me....yay...so i will be a good good gurl...so sweet n so nice...yay...alittle difficult but i will change for the sake of being a better person lyk in my previous(dunno how many previouses...)post i said i will get rid of some bad bad traits..i will build on it n become a good good gurl...yay...but actually i nd the shoes cos my nike ones are going to be too SMALL...yes...my feet ARE growing...n i wanna grow taller....cos i m vry the short...i realised tt ytd...read on...
ytd i went w my parents to my aunt's place to give her n her family some food which cant be kept for long n which my parents bought for them...n since it was a weekday...oni my cousin(male) n my older aunt are there...n tt cousin is oni 1 yr older than me n when young my uncles n aunties will alwaes compare my height to his n i was oni alittle shorter than him..but now...i jus look n i think hes vry much taller than me...n his legs are long...fine hes a boy...but aniwae i m short....full stop...haiz...n i bet i m heavier than him...i ate so much n i nvr exercise...ahhh...
n when i come back fm korea the next day nd to go wedding lunch at some hotel in orchard...n i hv nothing nice to wear...i dun wanna wear the same one i wore at the malaysia wedding....n theres another wedding later in dec at orchard hotel i think so must wear nice nice...but i bet if i wear those nice nice clothes rite...my fats will be lyk bulging out....eeeeeewww.....HOW?why pple wedding all at the end of yr one?why cant spread out abit...then next yr dunno when hv another one....haiz....i wanna go to the gym to exercise...n get rid of those stoopid fats...believe it or nt...fats are vry annoying...yes...but i dun think i will eva go...cos i wont hv a chance to...
todae is fridae liao...so tmr is saturday...goes w/o saying rite...but tmr is a special day...cos i will be leaving tmr nite...i dunno wad to expect...haiz...jus hope the food isnt vry nice so i wldnt put on a few extra kilos....n i shld jus control myself n nt eat those harmful snacks...haiz....
i wanna watch happy feet n casino royale n open season....n many many drama serials n dvds n vcds...but sadly the dec hols are going to be over....n soon we will be saying hello to the new sec ones at their cca orientation(for me...think so...)n to our new lifes as sec twos....it will be so different....
again...dun miss me too much...i will be back on dec 9....n pls do keep my tagboard alive...n dun forget i cant be contacted in tt one week...due to the sad fact tt my phone isnt a 3G phone n korea dun welcome any other type of phones for tourists...

2006-11-30T21:28:00.000+08:00

I M OFFICIALLY BACK!!!haha...jus realised tt i m missed by many...haha...so honoured...haha....me so thick-skinned...hehe...but i will be away again in a few days for a week n be back on 9 dec...so count the days...hehe...
malaysia was ok i guess but i could do w more shopping at the shopping centres...for nice nice things...they have some nice stuff but i dint buy a lot except some earrings...actually only one cos the others r for my mother's friends...ate alot n so i m fatter...cos their food in ipoh is rather oily but its nice..vry nice...n we went relative-visiting oso...abit boring but nvm...i learnt alot of cantonese....yay...haha...
then the wedding was rather grand...in a hotel ballroom noe...n the wedding gowns are so nice...but the food according to my uncle is nt tt great cos its halal so no pork i think...but i think its rather nice...esp the prawns...yummy...
oh n i watched alot of tv...on astro...something lyk our singapore scv liddat...so nice...the shows are so much nicer...a pity i cant hv scv...but nvm...
haiz...will be away in a few days time...but i think i will hv fun...but i so dun wanna go to the wadeva spa castle...need to change to swimming costume...eeew...i so dun hv a body to flaunt so wad for....n why do i need spa...n why cant we jus spend more time shopping?haiz....
oh ya i bought a goong magazine...inside hv many pics n those jing4 dian2 dui4 hua4 in the show n hv two posters...vry nice...all jus for RM$7 so S$2.80 only...haha...
ok gtg liao...might blog again tmr or on saturday in the day...i m only leaving home in the nite cos its a late-night flight..haiz...wonder if there will be movies on the plane...
p.s.dun miss me kaes?haha...n my phone wont be accessible in korea so i wont be contactable...so sad rite?so next time u change phone change to a 3G phone so go korea n japan can use....

2006-11-21T11:25:00.000+08:00

yay ytd was so fun!shi ting missed it all...haha...but actually it will be more fun if shi ting go oso...haiz...shi ting so lazy...bcos far tts why dun go...so naughty...haha...
shi ting:if u do ever come here rite,let me tell u...i cant buy for u alfred bear if its too ex...so maybe u tell me how much ur aunt buy then i see can or nt lorh then i go korea help u find...k?
n ytd i was so tired tt i forget to thank carissa n shi tian...
carissa:thanks for the present!the card is super sweet u noe n the seashells are so nice n the stars too n the sweet looks delicious...thanks so much!
shi tian:thanks for the present too!pooh is so cute n piglet too...i love winnie the pooh n his friends...ur taste really good lerh noe...can buy something so nice...thanks alot!
oh ya anyway todae my mother going to change the crumpler bag for me to a more ex but better one as my christmas present this year n birthday present next year...cos i stupidly realised late last nite tt the grey one had no buckle so easier for pple to take thing rite?but the velcro will make alot of sound...but anyway...w buckle safer....
aniwae i wont be blogging for quite some time k?but please do help me keep the tagboard alive,can?thanks!:)

2006-11-20T21:01:00.000+08:00

today we went to escape theme park n it was quite fun but nt totally fun cos well once u've been to disneyland or universal studios, u will think this way.well but its fun cos i was together w my frens n the nice nice 108.but i dint dare to take the ride which had someone fall out tt one n the inverter i think n the one which u will get wet n the bumper boat i think n the go kart n the choo choo train...ya...but i had fun..screaming n securing my new new rimless specs that i lyk n chose n laughing n eating ice cream(hip hop jelly i think by paddlepop...haha...reminds me of hip hop hadley)n eating popcorn(which i sadly threw some away cos i was sadly too full when i dint actually eat lunch)n drinking coca-cola lime(which make my nose feel a little weird when i burped a silent burp)n playing skatterball(one of the carnival games n which was free cos of promotion but i dint win anything anyway so lucky tt i nvr pay for it)n feeling a little dizzy n scared(haunted hse)n most of all tired but happy...at least i dint waste my time taking the mrt to pasir ris fm bishan which required me to change mrt at city hall n take bus to bishan fm my hse...haha...
*the viking was nice but i closed my eyes almost thruout the whole thing cos shi tian was screaming lyk mad so it shld be scary n i kept on asking her to stop shouting so i can nt feel so scared but she dint then when she stopped i open my eyes..nt tt bad but its lyk ur stomach drop down first then ur heart...so when i stepped out of it..i was quite dizzy but aftertt ok liao..n no we did nt sit in the middle,we sat at the end...
*we took the roller coaster,the mini one...nt fun one actually but still after when i come out my heart was beating so fast...
*we oso go into the haunted hse...carissa,shi tian n me went in w some boys n a girl n shi tian was in front of me n carissa was behind...so i gripped shi tian's hands n carissa gripped mine...n so we went in...starting:quite ok but aftertt saw some fake monsters then started running,halfway my specs dropped fm my left ear n hung on my right ear,so i put on again then i look back n behind carissa was a thing w a monstrous face n a huge fork i think cos i dint see clearly n hooded coat(obvious is a person but at tt time dint think or otherwise was too scared to think so run n scream)..then a person said 'dun run,dun run'(i know is a person cos i looked back n i saw this escape staff but shi tian dint noe cos she dint look back so she ran cos she thot the 'ghost' will catch us...so funny...until i told her in a vry calm voice i think,dun run...then she stop but tt time was ending oreadi so its lyk nt so scary liao..)..then ending:there is a door for u to open to leave the place so when we reached rite,the boys infront of us rite,open the door n screamed n shi tian being in front screamed first n so i screamed n so carissa screamed...then we go out n the boys were lyk laughing...u see so i conclude tt boys r a mischievous n naughty lot...(l8r rite,i saw one of them smoking noe...n its obvious their hair is dyed n they look lyk secondary students...haiz)...so tts the end of the haunted hse journey...to know more...experience it urself...
*then we sat the ride w the big big word rainbow...i share seat w shi tian n carissa sat on her own...n rite shi tian kept on sliding on to me n screaming into my ear...n so i ask her to stop it cos i was rather scared but i dint scream cos i dun often scream...n yet again i closed my eyes...then i ask shi tian to close her eyes so nt so scary at least u dun see anything...then nvr scream liao...but its rather exciting...
we oso got take other rides but nt worth mentioning...haha...then after tt we go tampines mall n look look see see...then after tt i go raffles city meet my mother...n she bought a crumpler bag for me...yay...rejoice!so happy,going to bring tt overseas...my vry early christmas present...i got the grey one cos the green which look lyk shitty green(which i stupidly thot was brown)one i dun lyk cos the green is too shitty...haha...the one tt yujia brought today...i got tt..i think its the same(sorry yujia but tt colour is the easiest to match n nt shitty green n i lyk..haha)...so happy...finally a sling bag tt i myself choose n nt others buy for me or free one...so happy...yay!i will take vry good care of it n use it for a long long time so as nt to waste money cos it isnt vry cheap...YAY!TODAY IS A HAPPY DAY!
aniwae this might be my last post for a long long time n i wont be updating cos i will be leaving on wed 22/11...n coming back on 29/11...go for co on 30/11(nt confirmed)...then leave again on 2/12 n come back on 9/12...
dun miss me ok?haha...i noe u wont cos i m nt worth missing...haha...

2006-11-17T21:23:00.002+08:00

i hv seen a teacher cry but i nvr knew why exactly.today i finally knew.well it wasnt a teacher who cried but a senior...she was so so so so so disappointed in us n all-she had her expectations n all,she put in all her effort n practised w us instead of leaving us alone n go prac by herself, she tried her best n was so so so understandingwhen we couldnt do it-n yet all we did was to stare at our music score n stone in our chair when we were supposed to play.well we werent able to catch up on the speed n all n our yin1 zun3 wasnt good,but we were supposed to already hv practised at home before we go for xiaozu n dazu so well it was us who were wrong.n we were late too when we were supposed to go at 8am for extra prac.n we reached at around 8.20am...but luckily nvr get scolded but i think it contributed to it...after all everybody has their limits...
i totally feel so bad larh so we practised during lunch break after eating cup noodles n i think i improved alittle bit in terms of speed but yin1 zun3 still wasnt perfect..but still when in dazu i dint play much. well i played the melodies n abit of the accompaniment cos aftertt i got lost n some other accompaniment when i stopped cos i got LOST AGAIN!n then i played the start abit oso cos vry fast n cant get the speed n my kuai4 ban2 was lyk...well u listen liao u will vomit blood n then say the word"lan4"then faint...cos i cant get the speed...omg i really really need to prac vry hard...i noe liao...i shall sacrifice all my tv programs n then concentrate fully on playing the zhonghu...n oso computer...ok maybe i shall practise zhonghu in the afternoon n then in the night i shall go online...hmm..ya...tts wad i m going to do!but i scared after i come back fm ipoh then i cant play again...HOW?ok maybe i shall play right after i come back on 29 nov then on 30th i will go for xiaozu...ya...
but its lyk so sad cos after i come back then afew days later go overseas again...ahh...i will be so so so slow when i come back..n so lost...i dun wanna go for holidays!ok maybe i wanna go korea but i dun want to go ipoh cos i will miss 3 prac sessions in tt week but 2 in tt week in korea but even so...i will miss my seniors n frens n esp chang2 di1 sui2 xiang2...haha...will try to memorise when i m on holiday cos there will be long bus rides n all that...so must well make use of the time...cos i wasted too much time before the eoys n so my results werent at all nice to look at...
i m going to put in all my effort n time n play chang2 di1 sui2 xiang2 until i can reach the desired speed n my yin1 zun3 is perfect...yes!i can do it!i m nt going to let my senior be disappointed in me again n the other two zhonghu-ers cos i m sure they will oso prac vry hard...YES!WE CAN DO IT!
reminds me of bob the builder...haha...haiyah no time to joke...got to go prac now...
i am feeling so bad n guilty n sad n disappointed in myself today...AHHHHHHHHH!pls forgive me!

2006-11-15T12:56:00.000+08:00

yikes!my left ear is feeling so cold now...ytd something super disgusting happened...i was thinking of washing my earrings n so i took them out n when i take out my left earring,something sticky n watery oozed out...fine,it sounds disgusting right?n guess wad is it?
IT WAS PUS...i think but it wasnt yellow or wadsoever but it stinks!eeeeeeeew......right?it was so yucky but it kept on oozing out n my ear was so red after that...i think i closed my earring in too tightly...so...ya...but shldnt it be blood?that time something liddat happened but only difference was that it was blood...hmm...luckily only me left ear got it..but when i washed my ear afterthat right...it hurt lyk mad...i think some skin came out...n today i wake up n u know wad?
the pus dried up on my ear n it was so yucky....eeeeewwww!i feel lyk vomiting lor...dunno why it happened...haiz...
ok larh...enough about that disgusting thing already...
at first i thought yul(kim jeong hoon) was cute n all that but abit the gay cos of his red red lips...ya still can accept...but now while rewatching goong on tv,i am starting to hate yul cos he keep on sabotaging shin n chaegyung's marriage larh...wad give chaegyung the idea of mentioning a divorce then haiyoh...at first so gan3 ren3 one...then so anti climax...maybe it was the climax but even so...he's lyk so shameless...chaegyung dun lyk him at all except as a good good friend n he still insist on his way...n he dun listen to shin abt wad ending it in their generation...he so bad n mean...keep on thinking shin was only selfish n wanted to keep chaegyung all to himself n not giving her freedom but...haiz..anw the last few episodes n that episode where they go stay at chaegyung's house n when they go to the beach are super nice n gan3 ren3...
i dun lyk yul-goon!but kim jeong hoon is ok,i guess with him being a singer but u know wad,shin walks in a straight line,i think that's wad happen to man becoming models...but he rawks more than yul...ahahaha...cos the way he shows his love is lyk so different..haha...n chaegyung lurves him...hyorin too...
that's all for today i guess...i might post again later...

2006-11-14T11:45:00.002+08:00

i got a new blogskin cos the old one jia xian has n so i changed cos anyway i was getting tired of it.but this new one background still black but its ok cos i lyk black..ok wadeva...oso i changed the blogskin bcos i want my blog to have a new life...to get away fm all those complaints bout my day n those posts which unintentionally blow things up or hurt someone...my blogskin changes and so i am going to change too and do this holiday!
'first
get rid of all my flaws which are oso my weaknesses(inconsiderate.insensitive.selfish.lazy.)
*if there are anymore,please do tell me...please do me this favour...
'second
practice zhonghu!jia hui says we must practise a few hours a day on last thursday n so far i hvnt prac a min yet...so later i m going to prac VERY VERY HARD n tmr oso n every day after that...cos its partly bcos ytd i saw snco blog n their goal is to get gold with honours...ahhh!!!the STRESS!n oso bcos this fri hv some pple coming to school to see us play n choose us if we are good to perform i think in march next year...will be a good practice...hope we get it!
'third
go holiday n wedding overseas
days which i wont be in singapore:22-29 nov,2-9 dec
after all those hardwork in practising zhonghu n attempting to change...i shuld get a nice nice break too rite?haha.no larh.these were planned in september by my parents.frankly speaking,i dun even noe where exactly we are going in korea, except that we are going to jeju island n the teddy bear museum(hope to see goong bears n buy souvenirs),i think.
and i m not totally keen on going for the wedding overseas...cos we will be staying w my relatives...n i cant be my normal self(cos i in front of others-- adults(other than my parents n teachers n strangers...fine,my relatives oni) will be extremely shy n quiet)... i dunno why...ever since i can talk and i m dong3 shi4 already, i became liddat...now even my cousins who are lyk growing so fast...n i m still so SHORT...haiz...nvm i hv one male cousin he is 14 n abt the same height as me so...hehe...not that bad...fine...i oso need to change my shyness...
'fourth
eat less junk food and more less fat food cos i m seriously going to be overweight if i continue eating liddat...i want to be healthy!haha.
ok,i think there's nothing more i wanna do this holiday,except maybe buy an ipod nano,kim jeong hoon cd and luo3 zhi4 xiang2's speshow cd...hmm...n i dun think i am ever going to watch goong 2 cos the pple are so ugly!!!except maybe one gurl n all the characters are changed!!!ahhh...chaegyung,shin,yul,hyorin wont ever appear again!...i think...nvm...

ya.and
to chern hwee: well,i am sorry that whatever happened happened and that our friendship became strained but ya,i hope we can all become good friends again and be like last time.can you give us this chance to return to what we were like in the past and become good friends again?and i am sorry about the goat farm and maths active day.i am really really sorry.hope you forgive us.

okokok...just a last word...
TO EVERYONE WHO VISITS MY BLOG:
I AM THANKFUL AND GRATEFUL TO YOU.BUT ALSO JUST IN CASE YOU DISLIKE/HATE ME, I HOPE YOU CAN STOP DISLIKING/HATING ME. I KNOW I HAD BEEN RATHER MEAN AND INSENSITIVE AND INCONSIDERATE AND SELFISH AND ABIT(SOMETIMES)EGO,SO NOW I AM SERIOUSLY TRYING TO CHANGE.I AM SORRY IF I SAID ANYTHING OR DONE ANYTHING WRONG TO YOU AND I HOPE YOU CAN FORGIVE ME.(i got that from lena,thanks lena...you inspired me to change)WELL,I HAVENT BEEN ALL THAT NICE TO EVERYONE IN CLASS AND MOST OF THE PPLE IN 108 KNOWS ME as a quiet and nice gurl I THINK AND WELL,I AM NOT QUIET WHEN I KNOW SOMEONE RATHER WELL...SO I JUS REALISED THAT I DUN KNOW ALOT OF PPLE WELL AND THEY OSO DUN KNOW ME WELL...WELL,I REGRET THAT!THAT'S WHY I HOPE CHANGING MY FLAWS TO STRENGTHS AND BEING MORE ENTHU WILL HELP.
PLEASE FORGIVE ME!

2006-11-08T11:23:00.000+08:00

i finally know how good and wonderful it is to have a perfect ending to a not-so-perfect situation...i oso learnt tt to every not-so-perfect situation there will be a perfect ending if there was a sincere apology or a sincere way of making up and being forgiven...this can be seen from shi tian's blog...it is true...as easy as tt...unless it is something so severe tt has not only hurt u but others too lyk wad i heard from someone i know...i wont sae who...liddat even though we may seem ok on e surface we on e inside will be wondering why did she do tt to so-and-so?i have been doing a little reflecting and i think learning to accept others flaws and strengths as well as appearance and behaviours,will oso be able to give us a perfect ending and i m going to have e courage to say sorry to e one girl in class whom we have often left out...even though i m e cle rep n i was supposed to lyk not be such a baddie and meanie...i did wad e others did...i was so wrong...ok fine...i did think i was right then but now,i regret it so much so i m going to say sorry...if only e whole class could do tt...i think she will feel that 108 isnt so bad after all and begin to love e class even its lyk e end of e year...if tt is wad we can do for her...but it has to come sincerely from e heart...will everyone be able to do that?YES.i m sure,cos w e determination to do so n oso acceptance...everything can be conquered...YES?anw,i m still going to sae sorry...

yay!this year has been so meaningful...I LOVE 108<3...yay!

...MUACKZ...

...i cant wait for e class outing...

...i wonder when shi ting,shi tian n carissa wants to come...

...who else would want to come?...

...HMM a new qn to think abt...

2006-11-07T11:14:00.000+08:00

i jus went to shi tian's blog n ya.she said sorry.i think she's sincere u noe...i shuld hv seen her blog 1st b4 posting my last post...i hope e two pple mentioned(dun wanna name in case of unnecessary publicity) dun mind...i m sorry!i amended e last post liao
(u see larh...fine i m lyk quite shy on e outside but inside i m lyk bursting w energy...on e com i m super open...as in wad i wanna say...)
i actually hat myself alot u noe...but nvm...must zheng4 zuo4 qi3 lai2!jiayou to myself!haha.

2006-11-07T10:06:00.000+08:00

u can choose not to read this u know,cos its a long post!
frankly speaking,i will miss 108.after all we have been thru thick n thin together rite?since we been thru scoldings fm teachers n jus pure fun n happiness as a class,even though some may be left out but at times we were such a perfect class.no matter how inconsiderate n irresponsible we are.well to us,it may be liddat but to some it might not be.but anw we have been given so many chances to bond n hv e class spirit burning(is a spirit able to burn or did i use e wrong phrase or is it a lit device?dotz...i dun lyk lit.),but did we?got larh hor...at least abit.n in e process i made so many new friends,knowing e fact tt at e start of e year,e oni 2 ppl i knew in sec 1 were xin ping n kelly,but in 108,oni xin ping.out of 37 ppl,i oni knew 2(including myself) n now,i noe quite alot of ppl n made some good friends but lost some too.so much had happened.it will nvr be e same again...no matter how hard we try...i m sorry but ya...it will be so awkward...after all we were both wrong rite?since at tt tym u thot we were wrong but we thot u were wrong...so...anw i dunno wads tt codeword u told me on msn...ehh...oh sry i digressed...oh ya...n i had such nice tablemates!:)really larh!chern hwee was nice till...siti was uber nice too!n sylvia was super nice n funny!n oso e pple on their other side(cos i realised i was alwaes sitting at e 1st/3rd seat)haha.it was such fun sitting w them in class.n for chinese i sat w boon yi b4(same chinese name...if u were wondering...xcept e pinyin different) n sylvia(ya.term4 both normal class n chinese.good rite?haha.)until rachel gan got sick of shi tian(maybe not...i dunno...maybe its jus tt sylvia was nicer!) then change place w me then i sat w shi tian.it was better actually bcos considering my height(ya.i noe i m SHORT!),valerie's head n hair alwaes block my view.hmm...anw we got e highest points noe?YAY!
i m really thinking of crying cos i will alwaes rmb 108 n all e 108-tians as well as e nice nice teachers,form teacher ms to e class outing.really!e last time we will meet as a class.*sobs* ong n cle teacher mrs teo,who has helped us grow n learn so much along e way in e 4 terms we had together.i m really looking forward
i therefore dedicate the song(last song on e left...play it)friends forever to e pple who hv enriched my 1st year in rgs,my nice nice friends,e whole of 108,e friends i made in CO n e nice nice seniors,shi yun,rachel lee,sylvia,n eunice for taking e same bus w me sometimes n tolerating all my crap(if i eva do crap)n complaints!without all of u,e year wont be as meaningful as it was...i will alwaes rmb all of u n if one day we leave sku n go to work n we meet each other on e streets pls do wave n i will noe wad great things u did n how u helped me along the way.THANK YOU SO MUCH!
p.s.i think i made more friends in term 4 n was less shy,rite?shyness is my weakness due to my straightforwardness.i m afraid to open up as i m afraid to lose a friend tt i hvnt yet noe.it may nt be something bad,jus rude,i tink...aiyah...

2006-11-03T21:38:00.000+08:00

todae

the

LAST

DAY

school!

we had sec 4 farewell assembly in e morning n it was so boring till e end then abit better cos of e graduation song(friends forever) n sku song n raffles cheers.tt was why i added friends forever to e songs at e side.haha.then we had recess.then cleaning up of class.it started all alright n we even had an auction where pple dun nd to pay money at all to get something.ya then when we finished cleaning up rite,ms ong n mrs teo came in n we gathered at e back of e class.it will be e last tym we will be there as a class as 108.then they started talking to us abt how we disappointed them n how diificult their job was n how uncohesive we were,which are all vry true.then u noe wad?ms ong cried.probably e 2nd/3rd/4th tym she cried tt we noe.n she asked for tissue.so me being e tissue supplier(i can be one!haha.)i gave her a piece n i dint return to my original place but i went to stand next to liqi n chern hwee.then they were lyk...why u crying?i wasnt lor!its jus tt b4 tt my eyes were lyk itching lyk mad cos of e excessive dust.actually maybe going to cry cos i tend to cry when i see pple cry lyk on tv.aiyah anw aftertt we had 3 cheers for 108.its lyk e last tym we will hv tt.maybe we werent at all bonded,not at all accepting,quite discriminative(if theres a word lyk this) lyk i was few months ago.i actually feel quite sorry for my behaviour.i really wonder how i can 1 moment be so kind n nice n e next i m daoing her.i oni hv 1 word to say n tt is SORRY.

then after sku dismiss i went to look for shi yun n zheng xi n yi fei n claudia but cant find anyone but saw abigail(of 107) n oso of our class.haha.n sec 3 rgco seniors.then found zheng xi n yi fei so we ate n put e sausages in e kitchen's fridge.aftertt we went to 212 n jus played n played(sec 1s oni).then we went down to koi pond for sec4 farewell.there we saw impersonators of wang2 gui4 ying1 lao3 shi1(our conductress)so funny!then a few more performances of singing then we went to cook.n 2 sec3 seniors follow us to go help us cum supervise us.so fun!n in e end e food were edible n extremely nice except tt e sausages r a bit bland but still nice.we cooked it u noe?sec 1s cooking.haha.no larh e sec3s help w e nuggets so it was crispy n golden brown.YUMMY!:)

then on e way to e bus stop,yi fei,shi yun n me were lyk trying to cry cos zheng xi sae tt it was sad n sorrowful tt e sec4s r leaving.but we cant cos shi yun kept on laughing.then aftertt yi fei go up on bus then shi yun n i while waiting for 132,e slowest bus ever,played e pointing game then i alwaes got so confused.sorry larh shi yun...i cant concentrate...kept on laughing...haha!

then i got home...too anti-climax liao...nvm...haha...

p.s.tmr i getting my new rimless specs n sims 2...n renting prison break if there is...n going shopping.YAY!anw drama nite winners(sec1)1st:106,2nd:105(get 1st better lah),3rd:forget liao(sry!) n 208 got 5th for poetry slam n 213 got 1st...

2006-11-01T15:35:00.000+08:00

lets see...this will be a super long post!
today was netball carn n ytd got drama nite audition.sadly we dint get into drama nite,which we thot we did,cos dora(sakina) smsed everyone i tink n in it was a dora e explorer song tt went lyk:

we did it we did it we did it hurray!

yeah we did it!

we went thru rehersals n rehersals n went thru e auditions

but we did it we did it we did it hurray!

=yi4 chang3 huan1 xi1 yi4 chang3 kong1

so sad...

but 2dae we got THIRD for netball carn...thanks to e great great players!lyk deanna n hannah who practically shooted e ball everytime we scored...actually they did...n they worked so well together.PRO-DED rite?oh ya,2dae during netball carn rite,they played a goong song....awww...n u noe wad?shi tian was singing to it...VOMIT VOMIT!...i want e goong ost!n oso e teddy bears...lets just hope tt i can get to see them in e teddy bear museum in korea when i going in dec...oh even buy them...but sure vry ex one!

now i noe i m sick...dun come near me its e goong fever...a slight one but its super contagious!BEWARE!

sry if tt was lame...oh my...dunno when can recover leh...n to those who find goong a stoopid show,u r so wrong!

goongrox...goong rox...goongrox...

ok i got this from yihui's blog as i was listening to e wonderful goong song...haha...anw here goes:

You know you’re obsessed with Goong when:

1) You’re a Shin camper.

2) You’re a Yul camper.

3) You’re a double camper of Shin and Yul.

4) Your favorite hang out place is the Goong thread.

5) You live in the US and stay up late on Tuesday and Wednesday night to watch Goong live.

6) You’ve watched episode seven at least twice (because it’s the best episode so far).

6. You repeatedly watch episode 23 for the hot hot hot kiss... and still is... 4 months after that episode aired on 30.3.2006..

) Who am I kidding? You’ve watched ALL the episodes at least twice (skimming through it counts!)

8) Your Soompi signature is Goongified.

9) You make Goong MVs.

10) You’re obsessed with teddy bears now because it reminds you of Goong.

11) Your favorite quote is “Omg Jesus Christ Superstar.”

12) You start reading the manhwa.

13) Your wallpaper is Goong.

14) You have your own Goong folder on your desktop.

15) You’re running out of space on your computer because of all the Goong episodes, MVs, pictures, OSTs, and heck… I don’t know what else.

16) You count the days and hours and minutes and seconds until the next Goong episode.

17) You talk to your friends and co-workers about Goong, even if they have no idea what the heck it is.

18) You want CG’s clothes and shoes.

19) Goongism is a religion, and you’re a faithful follower.

20) You get real excited when you own a page in the Goong thread.

21) You write the last page number you've read on the thread on a sticky/post-it note so you wouldn't forget the next time you visit.

22) You save every cap of Goong posted on this thread.

23) You wished you were married to Shin.

24) You wear black trackpants underneath skirts like ChaeGyeong.

25) You look around Soompi's selling thread for hairclips like CG's.

26) Heck... you even tried requesting for those cute little tiaras.

27) You made a cloth doll of your bf with his smiling/mad picture on each side...XD

26) Everytime you eat lettuce wraps you smile and think of that scene in episode 7.

27) You made your boyfriend do that Shin "gesture" when you made him eat lettuce wraps.

28) If you were a "Yulian," you now want to read those books he reads in the drama.

29) You have a printout of Hyo Rin & Yul's Mom's pictures tacked into a dartboard...

30) You didn't own a dartboard, you just bought one so you can dart their TOOT-TOOT faces!

31) You start to love the sub team and make them your idols.

32) You turn into a supporter of S.A.V.E with a silent J.

33) Once you have Goong, you want to share with everyone by reuploading it.

34) You watch the raw Goong once it comes out, even if you can't understand Korean and hate watching it without sub.

35) Anyone supporting Goong is your buddy, anyone anti/against CG or Goong become your enemy!

36) Wednesdays and Thursdays are your new favorite days of the week.

37) You think CG is the luckiest girl in the world, and wish you were her.

38) You're oblivious to other dramas because all you can see is Goong.

39) People who upload MVs, pictures, blinkies, wallpapers, episodes, and subtitles of Goong are your heros.

40) When you're watching Goong, you want absolutely NO disturbance because you don't want to miss a moment of it.

41. Perhaps Love is one if not your favorite song. You've memorize the lyrics even though you don't speak Korean.

42. If you're a girl, you wanted to be the Bingungmama and if you're a guy, you wanted to be the seja.

43. you update your msn emoticons so that when you type 'cute', 'hot'..... it shows up pics of shin/yul/chaegyung.

44. your msn nick/status has at least one word related to Goong...

45. every other page on the Goong thread has a post from you...

46. your display pic has something to do with Goong

47. you rant about Goong in your blog posts

48. you force your friends to read the manga since they can't download the actual episodes

49. when u buy a gigantic poster of Goong and paste it on your bedroom wall.

50. when u start tying your hair the way cg does in the show and grabs all hairbands which are similar

51 . when u watch the hugging scene between cg and shin 50 times in a day

52. you constantly go look for pictures related to Goong and its cast

53. you sign up for members-only korean websites [cyworld, club mbc, naver, daum] just to gain access to tons of goodies!

54. if soompi has an unscheduled server maintenance all of a sudden, you refresh your page like crazy and/or move onto the oh-highness Goong forum and spread your Goong-liness over there

55. you become hyper when you pass by shops and their amplifiers are blasting theme songs of GOONG

56. you beg a korean friend to lend you their residence number so that you can sign up at korean-only websites that doesn't accept foreigners' applications...

58. you pay $ to MBC to watch clips on their website

59. You have to check the Goong thread in the morning, at noon, and before you go to sleep everyday. Nevermind, you're just here all the time.

60. You photoshop Goong into other movie and drama posters.

61. This thread is saved as your favorites. Actually, all the websites where you can discuss about Goong or get goodies are saved as your favorites.

62. You get so into the episode, that when your mom, dad, brother, or sister passes by they can see how silly you look while watching it.

63. You made your own Goong website.

64. You constantly daydream about Goong and everything about it, and once in a while you'll start laughing at something you remember and people think you're insane

65. you make an obsession list about Goong

66. You confess you have an addiction to Goong and you are unwilling to get help (My religion teacher asked me if I had an addiction and I said Goong, she was like what?)

67. You get more people into watching Goong

68. you refresh the Goong page a few times when u don't see another post (missed out from #52)

69. You bought chucks and painted them.

70. You plan on naming your future kids Shin, Yul, or Chaegyung.

71. You keep on adding on to the "You know you’re obsessed with Goong when…." list

72. Instead of profanity, you now say "Oh Mah Gah, Jesus Christ Superstar!"

73. You wish you were in Korea to witness on-location filming of Goong and curse yourself when you were in Bangkok at the same period when filming was done in Thailand...

74. you neglect your daily schedule and activities to make a ridiculous amount of goong graphics.

75. You have a sudden craving for Shin ramen (especially with egg)

76. Half of your message count is from obsessively posting in the Goong thread...

77. When you own so many pages in the GOONG thread that you've lost count and it doesn't matter to you anymore, hehe

78. No one wants to work or go to school, our famalies think we've gone totally nuts!

79. We're always in front of the comp and only take pee breaks, sometimes we even forget to eat!!!

80. Our vocabulary has totally changed and now includes "goong" in most words (ie. goongness - goodness, goongnight - goodnight, etc.).

81. We go around saying "oh mah gah jesus christ" all the time.

82. We have dreams of Shin and Yul, and nightmares about Ho-Toot and Toot^2. We are all sleep deprived.

83. We all walk around like this or like this , when it isn't Wednesday and Thursday

84. You know you're GOONG OBSESSED when everyone in the GOONG thread knows you by your first name, lol

85. You buy Dooboo doll from the net so that you can kick him like Chae Gyung does...

86. You order Alfred from the net so that you can speak to him like Shin does...

87. You went to Macau for their last episode filming...

88. You order all of Chae Gyung's fashion from the net... and all of her ear rings!

89. You still visit the Goong thread months after season 1 has ended...

90. You constantly curse the PD for keeping us in suspense about Goong season 2 casting...

91. You vote for YEH to be queen of Soompi and JJH to be king of Soompi and KJH to be prince of Soompi religiously in all rounds...

92. You're planning to have Shin and CG's face painted on your bedroom walls. (I'm planning to do this SOON! -- mayetlovesjisung)

93. If you're from the Philippines, you want your name to be Chaegyung's name when they dub the drama in Filipino language.

94. You're saving up to buy the original Goong copy from YesAsia if you have not already gotten yours on the day it launched!

95. You're planning to ask your boyfriend to give you the original copy of Goong as his Christmas/Valentines/birthday/monthsary/anniversary gift!

95. If you're from the Philippines (again), you're secretly wishing that ABS-CBN (the station that got the rights of Goong) won't show it because you're afraid of dealing with people who will think that Shin is their boyfriend and will try to steal him away from you and you're also wishing that they would all go after Yul! Hahaha!

96. You bash up forumers who dissed the show!

97. You constantly dream of Shin and Chae Gyung making triplets!! haha!!

98. You become an FBGI!

99. You compile an obsession list about Goong :P

100. You wish for JJH and YEH to become a couple in real life!

101. Half the people on your msn list are goongners ^^

102. You can't wait for the day for Goong to be shown on your local TV networks!

103. You became a Ju Jihoon fan.

104. You became a Yoon Eun Hye fan.

105. You became a Kim Jung Hoon fan.106. You spam the thread with "are they confirmed to be back for Goong 2?!" or "I wished the original cast would be back for Goong 2!" when there were already countless posts proclaiming the same...

106. You cry when Goong thread was closed due to spamming

107. You smile again when Goong thread two was allowed to be started ^^

for those who read all e way to here,CONGRATS!cos i tink u r super interested in goong n is obssessed w it...otherwise y did u even read it?haha...

3 nov is e last day of sku...no fair cos other ppl hols start liao but nvm,still hv FUN...

i cant wait till dec!ahhh...korea,here i come!dotz...

2006-10-20T12:18:00.000+08:00

the first thing i m going to sae is YAY cos exams over le n finally can relax...hehe i m a lazy bum...i promised to update after EOYs n here i m hahax...had my math paper this morning it was quite ok but i tink i got a few qns wrong liao...so sad...then ytd my geog n chem n wed hist n lit i all DIE...how leh?huh?i bet next thur i m going to DIE oso...haiz i bet i m e first person on earth to die so many times.wadeva.ok larh now is 12pm n i oreadi dunno wad to do...so hungry but nothing to eat...haiz nvm...lets see i can play com then watch tv then go out n shop...quite ok wad rite?oh i tink i m going to the newly opened vivocity to shop next week.a lot of high end products rite...looking forward hehe...gee i cant take e hunger anymore...shall go look for food.....

P.S.i jus realised tt my posts r either too emo or too lame...isit?

2006-09-02T20:14:00.000+08:00

ok,back again.supposed to discuss lit pt online fm 7.30pm onwards but now,already 8.15,no one is online,so here i am,updating my blog.
ytd was teacher's day!so here's a belated HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY to all teachers!ya.on thurs i went back to mcs.i left sku w xin ping then met a ex-mcsian.n u noe who she is?i tink she is e vice-chairperson of the psb dis yr(sec 4) n las tym she was our head prefect when i was in p3.i dint recognise her though...sorry!xin ping noes her so she talked to her.i tink i seemed quite unfriendly.ya.i did.haiz.tts e prob w me.i too shy liao n too straightforward liao.how?haiz.anw,let me continue.then we reached mcs.we werent allowed to go in at first then everyone were lyk standing at e security office.then finally get in.but we were oni allowed in e canteen n foyer.but we dint care.we went upstairs to e staffroom n we saw ms tien,mdm khoo,mrs loh,wang2 lao3 shi1, and some others.our 'juniors' were lyk staring at us all e wae n for e first tym,i felt TALL!yay!then we were chased downstairs by mr chong.fine.then we went to canteen n we saw e saint nics girls.ya.fine,i was extremely xtra.xtremely xtremely EXTRA!well its nt for e 1st tym.until jia hui came.i felt relieved.then we talked.then i felt xtra again.then i saw brenda.so happy when i saw her,but i dint bring her pressie.i hope we will meet again.but i dun tink i going back to mcs again.for now.then i saw breanna.she looks different n so much cuter now.wow.our class full of chio girls xcept someone n tts ME.haiz.wadeva.i left early w jia hui.then i heard fm yihui tt they all went to j8 and she met them there.i tink.i dint go cos anw i will b so extra n invisible.haiz.i tink i too shy leh.but if i n someone a bit closer then my mouth will go shoot n anyhow sae things sometimes.nt everyone though...jus random ppl.so i dun dare to make many many frens.later all dun be my frens all at one tym then i will be so lonely all over again lyk i m everyday aft sku.haiz.i hv oreadi lost afew frens dis yr,jus 9 months aft sku started.i feel bad,guilty,angry,sad,n many many contradicting feelings which i dunno how to describe.i often wonder why is my mouth lyk tt.why?i dunno.i m at a loss.i once felt tt i was vry accomplished,clever and vry lovable.but i was wrong.wrong.and still wrong.i nvr was any of those.and tt is why i feel so bad.my arrogance n proudness in e las few yrs if there was any,i dunno,but i tink there is.my unfriendliness towards others.my unwillingliness.my mistakes.my carelessness.my ignorance.i am sorry towards any whom i hv hurt or angered through my many bad points.i am trying to change.i really am.but it seems tt i hv no time and no chance.i dunno.i nvr did give myself a chance to 'repent',did i?i dunno.i really don't.pls pls do tell me wad i shuld do.
sry if dis seems lyk a journal entry.it jus came out.

k i m so totally pissed.i thot i finished everything--pts,s-l,etc.but now still hv hw,lit pt,s-l hvnt finish selling,n many many more things to do.n i cant believe myself.i alwaes digress.see tv then on n watch wadeva show is on,see comp then jus on n go webbie surfing nt tt i noe wad to do when i on.its jus for no reason at all!!!!i am so pissed off w myself n my life!why cant i resist the temptation?why cant i hv proper time managment?why?why?why?

i finished this entry at 8.45pm.
signing off,wenyi

2006-07-30T12:07:00.000+08:00

my b'dae ova liao.i am 13 liao.so sad.actualli dis is e worst b'dae eva.but,i noe dis is abit late but its gd tt on 17 jul,during RHD party,we all cut cake,celebrate b'daes fm jan 2 jul.so dis is gd, happy.ok fine dun tok bout tt liao.
got back hist test noe.i get quite low leh.nt at all happy.no wae!nxt wk get back bio test n hopefully lit test.i wanna noe how well/bad i did.for every test i alwaes do last min one,cant be tt great either. but i wanna noe.i jus wanna noe.its gd tt i finish planet zork liao.yay!but hvnt do hcl fa yet.haiz.nvm.lyk dis is my first tym doin last min work.
i jus cant wait till week 7 cos oni go sku for lyk 2 daes.gd rite?jealous?haha.aniwaes,HAPPY B'DAE TO CARISSA,whose b'dae is on Aug 4th.
ok then i gtg liao.bb

2006-07-15T17:09:00.000+08:00

finally blogging again!!!yay!!!wadeva lorh...nvm
hvnt been able 2 blog for e past few weeks...alwaes doin last min work lorh then waste tym watching tv...but wad can i do?i cant stand e temptation...haiz...i m a loser!!!ahhhhh....jus want 2 shout it all out 2 release all my internal frustrations(if any,its internal,so how would i noe???)or sadness or jus plain restlessness...mayb even tiredness...i alwaes feel siann nowadaes.dunno why lerh.
aniwae i m vry angry n quite sad over something..no offence,hoi tong.tt dae i called hoi tong to lyk ask her wanna but rgco concert tickets or not.e first thing i saed when she pick up e phone was hello do u rmb me?then, here comes e frustrating part.she saed,abigail right?i was lyk pissed.i sort of showed it out i tink........then when i tell her i m wenyi then her at first enthu voice became tt of tiredness...i cant believe it lorh..frenz w her for lyk 6 years then now she go st nics liao,aft 6 months 4get me liao lorh.luckily jia hui(yam) aka martian(i wonder if she's still called dis) still rmb me..oso frenz for 6 years.same class everything.
yah then brenda send me moi b'dae pressie liao on mondae...vry nice n simple lehz.i lyk.e first b'dae pressie i got!thanx brenda!i realli wonder how many pressies i will get.hmmm.....
ok larhs i gtg liao..parents nagging...n aniwae tmr,16 july,is moi b'dae!so excited!wadeva(lyk p1 liddat)heehee...
buhbye!

2006-06-24T15:27:00.000+08:00

harlos!
sry for not updating for so long!aniwaes,i m back liaoz!my house is lyk so different n i finally hv my own room,as in a fully furnished one.yay!so happy!!!i tink i m falling in love w it!i dunno.ok.aniwae,yesterdae we went to Little Guilin.scenery so 'breathtaking'!so nice!so natural!haha!it mus be natural!except for e lake!its fake!haha!hv h/w lehz.i hao2 bu4 rong2 yi4 finish most of my h/w then give somemore!will die leh.then i jus remember tt Term 3 Week 1 hv diversity test.how?then after tt dunno when hv history test then lit test!haiz!i sure die larh!whole holiday,i keep eating n sleeping n watching tv n playing games on com,hardly doing any work!how!nvm.the most i jus do last minute work lor,lyk i alwaes do!n toking bout last minute work,i hvnt do WGP yet!i dunno where to start!help!!!i will die if i continue being liddat!aniwaes,on monday,it will definitely be e worst day of our life for all 108tians cos we will be scolded by you-noe-who(otherwise affectionately known as ******* to us).tts jus our life!and aniwae shi tian,i was not jealous.i was jus a bit pissed off w e mud on e ground n e raindrops dropping off e leaves n dropping on my wkst!so angry larh n thinking abt tt i jus remembered tt i hv to do tt wadeva h/w they give oreadi but it will be after i play some games on e internet...hmm wad shuld i play?ok i continue thinking later..now nothing to write liao so bb!
P.S wad r some good gaming webbies?

2006-06-02T10:52:00.000+08:00

hihi i m back again.woohoo.wadeva...dotz
kk.on 13 jun 108 hving class outing 2 dis place called settler's cafe,sorta lyk a boardgames cafe,w free flow of soft drinks n potato chips 4 $$i dunno.i tink hoitong will lyk dis place cos i saw e website got boggle,got lotsa games tt hoitong will lyk,to let her learn.lifelong learning.yes.no offence,hoitong...then on 14 jun 6b'05 hving class gathering @ escape theme park.i dunno whether i shuld go cos i tink i will be vry vry xtra.i hv alwaes been xtra.yes.letme tink.i might go in e end.yes but no guarantee though cos i dunno whether 14jun i free or not n i oso dunno how 2 get there by myself not tt i noe how 2 get to settler's cafe @ holland v.how?shuld i go?haiz.actualli i shuld go.realli realli n realli.but i dunno how 2 get there lehz.nvm can ask wad.lyk duh...letme tink kaes then i decide.i need 2 tink.wadeva.
i m a official LAMER (but not les k.)! i m so proud bout being one,am i not?huh?u see i m being lame but i m not irritating.how can carissa n shi tian call me irritating pig?first thing:do i even look lyk a pig?not 2 me at least well hu cares eh.i m not irritating unless u irritate me first.ya so tts it.so long as nobody annoys/irritates me i wont be irritating/annoying.
yes so tts it for 2dae.i mus blog when i hv e chance nowadaes cos fm next wk onwards till last wk of jun i wont be blogging so dun miss me ok.i noe u will miss me though.haha wadeva.
bb then.dun miss me.i dunno when i will next blog.bb.

2006-05-31T22:47:00.000+08:00

haiz.haiz.haiz.

tts me nowadaes.sighing as i walk,sleep,sit,everthing i do.

S-L is driving me crazy!!!!!ahhhhh...just an update

this sunday's meeting

date: 4 June

venue: Hanis's house

time: 1-5pm

counted for cip hours hor!jus go!

following meetings will be on tuesdays and thursdays.

tuesdays @ Liqi's house(most probably) thursdays @ i dunno.someone offer please!preferably someone staying in e north/south/central.please!

i sincerely hope tt someone can take e initiative.thankew.cos some ppl r not willing 2 travel all e wae over Singapore lyk some ppl,person rather hu call me bodo...so.haiz

sry but i realli not in blogging mood.so bb!!!

2006-05-30T10:13:00.000+08:00

i m realli sry 4 nt blogging 4 so long.cant find time 2 do so, alwaes indulging in other pleasures of life.haha.true though...ya lah.lemme update u on wad happened and wad will be happening. Joan passed away already.it was so sad.lyk so fast lor.i realli admire her.she was so brave and so considerate and so open-minded.all rgs girls shuld be lyk her-a perfect role model.realli.ok.
ya for hcl pt, i will be workin w ruo jun n liqi.good lehz.hehe.ya lar.then for math pt.i dunno how alreadi...nvm.dun wanna b bothered by all these things.i holidae mood alreadi.ok then on thursdae we takin bac our progris riport.those who read FFA will noe wad i tokin bout. haha.actualli evrione fm 108 will noe wad i tokin bout.cos it is alwaes mentioned.haha.ya then 108 class outing how? service learning how?service learning we must hurry liaoz leh....when can we meet?wad will we do when we meet? class timeline how?we havun even got e timeline fm collection team n publicity(its my fault.i forget 2 take fm hanis.).i cant b so forgetful already...how?ok i jus got info tt production meet @ hanis's house on 4 july but i dunno wad time...do e whole class nd 2 go or oni production????????how.i m desperate!
ok then i m gettin mor depressed by e minute so bb.

2006-05-18T21:47:00.000+08:00

i m supposed to do geog now but i jus cant concentrate so here i m...dotz..i m a lamer!yays!tmr is e postponed 2.4km run and i realli tink i might fail otherwise 2/1 points cos i ate a lot these daes.haiz.wadeva.i realli feel lyk goin back 2 mcs on 26 may but tt dae hv CO.so how?open house:2-5pm.....even if i go back,will anione be there?dun tink so....unless we plan 2 meet up.but can i?wad bout them?i realli miss moi frens lots and lots.
aniwae right.i linked 108 so please visit our blog.pretty please.thankew.
kk then i shall end here then and i dun tink i will blog tmr cos i goin hospital visit dad cos he has op...pray pray pray tt it will be successful.
ok then.wish me luck for 2.4 tmr!
bb cya!

2006-05-15T15:52:00.000+08:00

so tired...slept at 1am yesterdae night or rather todae morning.i can nvr sleep late.this few weeks oso sleep so ultra late....haiz.k,this doesnt seem lyk a gd wae 2 start off but y not?ya.y not?wadeva.sorry but i m vry ultra lame.hehe.k,2dae we got back our physics results and hcl results.i m not happy at all.hcl ok la but still can improve loads.physics...i m vry pissed off.k,shall not bore u animore.my hist. pt was lyk so not good compared 2 the others.theirs all so nice so creative wan leh.nvm i m prepared 2 fail.not tt i nvr fail b4 right?failing isnt tt bad right?there is always a second chance.failing will oso spur u on 2 work harder.ya.but its the reality tt is vry hard 2 face.a 'fail' doesnt look at all nice...it doesnt feel good too.i have experience.ok then,i will leave these depressing stuff away and sae byebye to them.ya.y not?shuld i be more positive and always look on the bright side of life?or shuld i be more negative?positive?negative?ok.sorry depressing stuff again.sorry.i m realli not suitable 2 blog 2dae cos i m ultra depressed.k...so bb?ya.y not?
bb.c ya...

2006-05-11T21:26:00.000+08:00

yay!!!!!all de tests over liao...but still hv pts & neverending hw.when will it stop?i tink tt i m vry stressed cos i starting 2 get vry crazy and forgetful and blur,but its just moi behaviours cos i dun wanna believe tt i m stressed cos being stressed isnt good 4 health.lol.but i tink i will get sick vry soon,cos 2dae during eng compre sa and maths sa, i was sneezing lyk mad,not realli but ya if u heard sum1 sneeze then its me,vry sure,though its not even cold.lol.haiz...
wadeva la.these few days sleep extremely late lor evridae go sch yawn and yawn and yawn one leh.i just cant stop watching tv and digressing and procrastinating.
then 2dae got back geog sa results,its undescribable.i jus dunno wad 2 sae.did i expect it or wad i dunno.its lyk.nvm.shall not continue.i realli felt lyk comforting her 2dae but she hates me to the core.i will oni make it worse.just wad did i do wrong?will we ever be frens again or will we just pretend each other isnt there?i noe sumtimes i vry straightforward so i offend ppl but its accidental tts y i m so vry quiet.i dun wanna be lyk dis not tt i choose 2 be lyk dis.mayb i mixed w the "wrong" ppl in pri sch?Hoitong isnt "wrong".Jiahui isnt "wrong".Yihui isnt "wrong".none of moi frens r "wrong".i trust myself.but sumtimes i jus cant bring myself 2 believe myself.i realli miss moi frens of marymount.when will we ever meet again?did we even try 2 be united as a class?i realli wonder.mayb we did.i dunno but its all of the past.is it?
i realli dunno.please give me some answers.....i m realli vry confused.
its realli more complex in sec sch jus how i wish i m still in pri sch,travel back in time,back to pri 1,playing w Brenda,Hoitong and Jiahui.so carefree.so innocent.so lyk Charlie Gordon of Flowers for Algernon.just dun understand anything.now tt we understand,it gives us additional stress and burdens.
sorry tt dis is so long but there was realli alot of things i hv been thinking bout.
aniwae i linked the extremely lame shi tian alreadi.(there is a space cos i dun wanna ****ian in moi post.haha)shes lamer than me!sorri i m jus being crazy.wadeva.lol.
abrupt ending:byebye.
Just was did i do wrong to deserve this?
~extremely confused me~

2006-05-06T15:24:00.000+08:00

hello!

the worst days are over. true?

i dunno.

i still hv alot of hw to do,pts,tests,everything. haiz why is it so full?

cos i procrastinate?i seriously hv no idea. it isnt in my control or is it?

aniwae sry for not blogging for such a long time.

i think i will flunk my physics and english. how? aiyah wont die lah so nvm.

i nd all of you to help me make a decision.

should i link shi tian?say yes or no. whether you noe her or not.

please... thanx alot.

ok then i nd to go bras basah take pics alreadi for hist pt.

credits to kelly for the background music. thanx alot!

ok bb.

2006-04-28T15:23:00.000+08:00

hello...
2dae supposed 2 hv co but dey hving dazu so no nd 2 go so now i slacking haha. haiz so many homewk die liao lah. nvm must jian chi xia qu. determination is da best thing 2 hv. ya. how i wish now i supporting rgtt b div. valerie da meanie didnt let me exchange w her. nvm. dey will win for sure. its a gd team. ya. ok lah i wanna plae games alreadi so buhbye!!!

aniwae can someone tell me wad background song shuld i use?
please and thank you.

2006-04-24T21:39:00.000+08:00

yays!rgtt won!!!hip hip hooray!!!
it was at chung cheng high(main) and i saw Aslyn.but not cheryl though.nvm.next time will hv chance.
ok then my hw is begging me 2 finish them so bb.

you can ignore this
(am i very quiet? do i even hv a sense of humour? haiz. help me!!! i must break out of my shell.)

2006-04-21T19:35:00.000+08:00

hello
message 2 yihui: i havent really changed. i m still me. dun worry. i miss u too! haiz but when will we ever meet again????? aniwae i going 2 chung cheng high school main on mon 24/4 2 support table-tennis. might see cheryl and aslyn. i dunno. will u be there? if u r goin back 2 mcs, tell me kaes? keep in contact oso k?

i seriously dunno wat is happening in sch. suddenly everything so fast. fm holiday to school start to pt to fa to sa. so fast its scary... i seriously dunno. dunno. dunno. dunno. dunno. is this effective/excessive use of repetition? i dunno. why, why and why?

p.s. this blog is still in construction, so pls bear w it for e moment. THANK YOU!

2006-04-15T16:17:00.000+08:00

hihi

i m sick of

life

school

haiz

why m i complaining

being in rgs is good

mayb bcos i miss my frens

oh my gosh

i thot i could put everything

of the past away

but

alas

there's no way

help!

but i do hv new frens

...

ok let me stop crapping

...

shall stop here.